She doesn’t stand a chance,
Won’t order on her own,
Can’t speak up to a stranger.
She can’t sing.
She can’t dance.
They tell her she should try.
“Never give up, fly high.”
She doesn’t stand a chance,
But she picks up the pen and writes,
Takes the brush and fights.
In front of the mirror,
She tries to dance.
Maybe she’ll get a chance.
She’s off to the big city.
She’s buying her own coffee.
She says, “I like your dress,”
To someone she didn’t know.
She’s dancing with the others
Outside before the show.
She’s only in the crowd
And no one even knows,
But she’s here,
And she’s alive,
And she has a chance.
This month I visited New York City with my Dad and my sister. We were three out of several thousand people roaming the streets surrounded by tall buildings and bustling businesses. Looking up at the sky, framed in by metal and windows and colorful billboards, my Dad remarked, "It's crazy when you think about it. God created people, and He gave us these minds, and we can build all of this." New York is a prime example of the wonders mankind can build with their minds and hands, and that makes it a pretty good example of what God can do, too. He created the people that built the city, and every individual life traversing its streets. This might not be where most people's minds instinctively go, but once the thought is there, it's undeniable. We serve an amazing God. When faced with something spectacular, or interesting, or exciting, we have two choices. We can enjoy the experience without a second thought for the God who made it possible, effectively turning a good thing into an idol, or we can take the opportunity to worship the Creator.
James 1:17 puts into plain terms why we should glorify God whenever we see something impressive here on earth: "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." Everything comes from the Lord. Even if it's built by human hands, the glory should go to the One who formed the hands. This is like the difference between praising a machine for a product it makes and praising the inventor who made the machine and keeps it running. Earlier in this chapter, in verse 11, God gives a warning to those who build up earthly riches and don't remember to praise Him for it: "For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich will fade away even while they go about their business."
Romans 1:18 is another passage that speaks about the destruction of the sinful: "The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness." Verses 21-25 of that chapter go into greater detail about these people: "For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like a mortal human being and birds and animals and reptiles. . . . They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen." Unfortunately, this is the same mistake that many of us make today–worshiping the thing created instead of the Creator.
This has been a problem since Old Testament times. Most children have probably learned about the Tower of Babel in Sunday school. This commonly taught story might just be the most catastrophic example of people worshiping their own work instead of God. "Then they said, 'Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves; otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the whole earth,'" (Genesis 11:4). Because the people were coming together to worship earthly things and seek personal glory, God confused their languages to prevent them from understanding each other. By doing this, He stopped them from building the sinful tower. "So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city," (Genesis 11:9).
God created each and every one of His people with certain capabilities. People have been able to do some pretty amazing things with these capabilities, but the glory should always go back to the Lord who makes it all possible. Scripture says that destruction will come on those whose eyes are on worldly things. As Christians, we shouldn't be distracted from our Creator by impressive or exciting experiences in this world, but we should instead use everything as a chance to glorify Him. We should obey passages like Psalm 100:1-3, which says:
"Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth.
Worship the Lord with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.
Know that the Lord is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture."
The clouds came apart
Like a star split;
A cosmic explosion
Pulls the curtains back
And opens the world.
Rock hard cold is gone,
If only for a day.
A sweet trickle fills the sky,
Chasing the dark away.
A warm wind kisses my cheek,
Full of bittersweet memory.
When I found the melody of our summer
Amid cold and frigid winter.
A new dream unlocked inside of me,
An anticipation,
The culmination of
Everything I love,
A wonder for life.
I was ready to learn to fly
The day my wings began to grow,
Unfolding under winter snow,
Verses floating in my mind,
Magic I could almost find.
Puzzle pieces fall together
In this preview for warmer weather.
Life is not just memory,
But present joy,
The joy to breathe,
Every moment getting higher.
Passion burns in me like fire.
I still remember broken nights,
But on and on and on I’ll fight,
If only for the days like this,
When cold holds off,
When warm resists,
When highs and lows of adrenalin
Leave me in the place I’m in.
I don’t want to be a poet,
Writing out my dreams.
I don’t want to be an artist,
Putting images to fantasy.
I don’t want to be a blogger,
Typing out relationships.
I don’t want to be a dancer,
Moving wild and free.
I don’t want to be a singer,
Shouting out a story.
I don’t want to be
Crippled by a dream.
I want to be a daughter,
Making my parents proud.
I want to be a sister,
Giving my siblings smiles.
I want to be a friend,
Giggling through the night.
I want to be an encouragement,
Picking others up.
I want to be a Christian,
Living in the light.
I want to be a human,
Living vibrantly.
Creating magic
In the world around me.
I don’t want to miss a moment,
Focusing on only one thing.
I don’t want to be alone
In my world of beauty.
I want to write.
I want to draw.
I want to blog.
I want to dance.
I want to sing.
I want to have fun.
I want to smile.
I want to talk.
I want to laugh.
I want to help.
I won’t be
Crippled by a dream.
I will be a human.
I will write, draw, blog, dance, and sing.
I will have fun, smile, talk, laugh, and help.
I will live vibrantly.
When I first read Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery, I was immediately interested by Anne’s unique personality. There are aspects of the character that I will never understand, which is part of the fun of reading, but there are also times when I know exactly what Anne is feeling. I think she is a character that understands me deeply, though she isn’t even real! This particularly stood out to me in chapter 20 of the book.
Near the beginning of the chapter, Anne is walking through a beautiful place that she calls Violet Vale. She says that she doesn’t worry about school as much there. I can relate to this because I find nature very calming. Blooming flowers and gentle breezes seem to wash my worries away, even if they all come back in the rush of everyday life and schoolwork. I’m not concerned with staying ahead of an annoying boy in my class like Anne is, but I get the same feeling just competing with myself and the answer book.
In this same passage Anne says, “There’s such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that’s why I’m such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn’t be half so interesting.” Sometimes I feel like I have too many different personalities, too. I’m calm and thoughtful but also fun and energetic. It’s definitely confusing and “troublesome”, as Anne puts it, but it does make things more colorful.
Another thing I loved in this chapter was the description of Anne’s room. “It was as if all the dreams, sleeping and waking, of its vivid occupant had taken a visible though immaterial form and had tapestried the bare room with splendid filmy tissues of rainbow and moonshine.” My bedroom is a special place for me because, even beyond the decorations and posters, it is full of me. The walls are full of my hopes. The sentiment is even more powerful to Anne because this is her first real home. The thought makes me thankful for my special place.
I can relate to the way Anne is a scatterbrain, too. I don’t starch handkerchiefs and forget to take pies out of the oven, but I do get distracted imagining like she does. Sometimes I decide to make up stories in my head about the people I see at the store. When I do this, I often get distracted from the rest of reality. It takes a moment to get a hold on what’s happening around me. Anne also mentions how she and Diana made up the Haunted Wood to add some excitement to their little world. I understand the urge for thrill. I try to invent interesting things, too.
The most memorable part of the chapter was when Anne had to walk through the Haunted Wood at night. I had a similar feeling of senseless dread a few months ago when I decided I had to draw thirteen pictures for an art contest with a deadline two days away. I knew I didn’t have enough time, but I felt like I had to do it, so I felt anxious about the entire situation. It was a problem I created for myself, but I was still upset about it. This isn’t the same as the situation Anne put herself in, but I think the feeling is the same. It’s like when you’re in line for a scary roller coaster and all you want to do is run away.
There are many scenes in just this one chapter that I can relate to deeply. This is mainly because of the character and her emotions, but setting also plays a part. Besides these, the way the author writes brings me even closer to the story.
What if artists
Never aged?
What if dreamers
Stayed the same?
Adults at birth,
Working
For our goals,
Running
For our dreams.
Always young at heart
Never growing old.
Ever rising passion,
Simple wonder at the world.
Age
Is just a number
Maybe
We can choose it.
Old and wise,
Young and vibrant,
What if
We could have it all?
What if
There were no limits?
Have you ever felt like you were simply going to jump out of your skin if you didn’t do something exciting? I think everyone has at least a little craving, a pressure in their chest to accompany every heartbeat, a longing for adventure. Everyone has that small part of them that wants to explore. Buzz Aldrin once said, "Exploration is wired into our brains. If we can see the horizon, we want to know what's beyond." For some people, the desire is stronger and it prompts them to go on wild expeditions.
Of course, there are practical reasons to explore the world besides just a feeling. Motivations for past expeditions have included finding new land for people to live on and more resources for people to live by.Gathering information on the earth as a whole has also been a key motive. The reason for Russian submarines to visit the bottom of the Arctic was to claim the frozen land and use its resources and strategic battle position.
Exploration does have its difficulties. It’s impossible to prepare for everything in an unknown place because the place is just that: unknown. Unexpected challenges may arise, and the proper supplies to combat those challenges may not be available.
Mandatory things that may go in short supply include light, oxygen, and food supplies. One example is the near starvation that the first settlers in the Jamestown colony faced. Navigation is also a major concern if a mistake is made.
If the challenges are overcome, however, exploration has many benefits. Some people have found peace and freedom in new lands, while others have simply found a place to spread out and stop overpopulation. Natural resources are always valuable finds for countries both to use and to sell. Research expeditions provide useful information that can be used in places we’ve already settled. Exploring God’s awe-inspiring creation can also be a means to get closer to Him, as was the case for some of the astronauts involved in the mission to the moon.
Exploration is a great and dangerous thing. It takes someone who is brave and determined to go where no one has gone before. As life continues and more and more is explored, finding these unknown places becomes harder and harder. That doesn’t mean people will stop, though. We’ve still got that spark, the urge to find more.
I watched the crystals of frost form around my fingers on the cold window. My cousins oohed and aahed at the elaborate ice sculptures we were passing. “Maria! Look at that one!” Betty screamed in my ear, leaning out of her seat and across my lap to press her face against the window. Her chocolate curls were flying everywhere. I jerked my hand away. She was looking with sparkly blue eyes at a small bear lit by colored lights somehow frozen into the glass figure. It was cute, but really didn’t stand out in the maze of animals. I wondered what had caught her attention about this one. Sometimes I felt like all I did was wonder. I didn’t ask. I never asked. I just giggled as she pouted at the cloud from her breath blocking her view.
I turned back to the open sketchbook in my lap once Betty returned to her seat. I made a rough sketch of the bear by the unsteady light, including details that I wanted to remember. I needed my full concentration to actually draw anything good, but I liked to do crude little doodles like this and fix them in my room later. My sketchbook was full of that kind of thing. I sometimes thought of it as the letter of my heart. I doodled everything I wondered about.
Charlie, who sat on Betty’s other side, was talking on and on about the anatomy of a polar bear, brushing back his messy brown hair. He was tall and lean with frosty blue eyes. Despite the fact that he was a total nerd, all of the girls at school insisted that he was hot. I didn’t see it.
I glanced back to see that Georgia, Charlie’s twin, was patiently translating what her brother said into non-sciency terms for little Fred, who wanted to be a scientist. He was staring at her with round blue eyes, hanging on every word with his mouth partly open. Georgia gestured with her delicate hands, silver bracelets sliding around as she talked. She was an angel, and there was something odd about that. I’d known her my whole life, but I still didn’t know her. I wondered what was beneath the surface.
“Hey!” I shouted as Nicolas slammed into the back of my seat and jostled my sketchbook. “Watch it!”
He didn’t respond, instead trying to get Fred into a headlock. In return, Fred punched him. I groaned and rolled my eyes as the boys continued to wrestle in the back seat. Grandma and Grandpa kept up a jolly conversation in the front.
So now you’ve met the cousin clan. It was always like this when we all came to stay with our grandparents in New York for Christmas: chaos. Betty was my sister; she and I lived with our parents in Florida the rest of the year. The twins were also from Florida. Fred lived in Kentucky and Nicolas in Ohio. We all came to our grandparents' house every year for a month in winter. Hence the chaos.
"Stop it! I want to hear about the polar bears!" Fred yelped.
"Nerd!" Nicolas taunted.
I turned my attention back to the window, tuning the boys out as we passed an elaborate nativity scene. I focused on Mary's glass face. It was carved into a delicate smile, her eyes closed. I wondered how it would really feel to be in the scene.
"You know, kids," Grandma said, right on cue, "Mary must have been the bravest woman ever to live. Imagine being the Savior's mother!" Grandma said the same thing every year when we passed the new nativity. It always made me think. How had Mary felt?
Two days later I was sitting in the corner of a church sanctuary. Kids were running laps and bouncing balls in the room that unfolded before me. Their loud voices echoed under the high ceiling. Adults were chatting and laughing merrily. I could see soda spilled on the floor near the pizza table; cookie crumbs litteredhe gray carpet. My sketchbook was open in my lap. I scribbled a few lines down as I noticed two kids chasing each other with a spoon. The kids brushed through the front of the church and I watched as May fell from the nativity in front of the pulpit. I hesitated, then got up to fix the display. The ceramic figure was cold in my hand. I turned her over, contemplating.
"You're Anne's granddaughter, right?" a voice asked from behind me. There stood a woman about my mom's age with dimpled cheeks.
My face turned red as I nodded. "Someone knocked this over," I explained.
"Gotcha," she smiled. "Anything you found particularly special about it?"
"What?" my brain always seems to work a little slowly in conversations with unfamiliar people.
"You looked thoughtful; I was wondering why," she shrugged.
"Just making sure it isn't broken," I said quickly, my face still hot.
At that moment a little boy started screaming about someone taking his juice box.
"Hang on," the woman told me, rushing away to help the boy, who I assumed was her son.
Once she left, I had time to think. Nobody had ever asked me what I was thinking about. Ever. My mind was a veil, my thoughts and questions hidden from the outside world. Nobody ever tried to remove the veil. Not me. Not anyone else. Someone noticing and outright asking what I was thinking about was new territory. Maybe it was a special opportunity.
"Anyway," I said the moment the woman returned, " I was just wondering how Mary must've felt." I was proud of myself for getting the sentence out before I lost courage.
The woman chuckled, "She must've leaned on God's grace a lot."
Now I was picturing some god dancing ballet. "Grace?" I ventured.
"Giving us what we don't deserve. God probably gave Mary peace despite the crazy situation."
"Isn't that called mercy?"
"Mercy is not giving us what we do deserve. How much of the story do you know?"
I shrugged, "Isn't it a classic story?"
"Do you know why baby Jesus is our Savior?"
"Wasn't it because he… actually, no, I don't know," I realized, blushing.
"He was born through a sinful woman into a sinful world. Everyone deserved to die. The world is still like that today. When He grew up, Jesus took the punishment for our sons by dying on a cross. You might've heard about that around Easter before. If you trust in Jesus, you can have mercy and he'll give you grace when you need it."
I stared at the woman, skeptical. "Can the world really be that bad?"
"Think of all the world's problems: war, terrorism, murder. It can absolutely be that bad. Think about your life. Have you ever done something wrong?"–I nodded—"Then you've sinned."
"Is it always a big deal, though?" I was feeling uncomfortable.
"Not compared to some things, but it is compared to the spotless world that God intended," the woman said.
I shrugged, "I guess."
"Give it some thought," she advised. Just then the kid started telling again and the woman disappeared in the chaotic room. I set Mary down and wandered back to my corner.
The world doesn't change in a day. Mine didn't. I nearly forgot about the encounter, but reminders kept popping up. I began to wonder at the lyrics of Joy to the World and other classic songs. I stumbled across a devotional for 25¢ while searching for gifts at the thrift store. I found a gospel tract in the mall bathroom.
One night, a few days before Christmas, I couldn't sleep. I reread the tract, flipped through the devotional, and played gospel songs in my earbuds on repeat. I was only getting more curious, so eventually I tiptoed past Betty and Georgia, down the hall, and into the living room. The TV sat on top of a cabinet full of movies and old tapes. Buried behind the Harry Potter series was something else, though: an old, dusty Bible that had belonged to my great-grandmother. I cracked open the ancient spine and flipped to a random book. John seemed good. I sat against the wall, partially concealed by the big tree with the popcorn and mismatched ornaments. I read by the pinkish glow of the lights. And I read. And I read some more. I made the choice that night.
Fast forward a year. We're here looking at the ice sculptures again. Fred is on his own trying to understand Charlie's words as Georgia is oddly silent. I wonder what's going on in her head.
"You're quiet," I say, twisting in my seat.
She shrugs.
"Want to get out of this chaotic car? It's fine if not."
"Sure, that sounds good."
I yell up to Grandpa, and he lets us out, agreeing to pick us up at the nativity in a while.
"What are you thinkin about?" I venture as we make our way down a lane of frozen candy canes.
"Nothing really, just… I don't know. I feel sort of invisible," she giggled.
"I get that. I used to feel like all I ever did was wonder about people, but I couldn't interact with them."
Georgia snorts.
"Not just real people, either. I always wondered how Mary felt. I mean, she was real, but like… not contemporary."
"I bet she was scared. At least if she was halfway human. All of that pressure to be some saint… yikes."
"Maybe. I still wonder about a lot of things, but I think I know how Mary felt. I think she felt full, knowing that God saw her and saved her and that she had a purpose, you know? I think she felt heard."
By now we're back at the nativity.
"You lost me," Georgia laughs.
I glance thoughtfully at Mary's statue. "How much of the story do you know?" I ask.
Bright leaves sparkle in the sun as I wander aimlessly through the trees. An orange butterfly passes my ear and I consider following it. I can go anywhere I want to go; the world is wide open with possibilities. That’s why geography matters to me. I want to discover all that there is to know about the earth and explore everything out there.
First, I want to learn about where I am in the world and why that matters. There’s something special in everyone’s hometown. I live in Harborcreek, Pennsylvania. When I go to the beach, I am swimming in the eleventh largest lake in the world, which touches three other states: New York, Ohio, and Michigan. How different is the same lake from one of those places? I want to know how things here compare and contrast with the rest of the country and even the world. That way I can really appreciate what I have and know what else is out there.
Second, I’ll need basic knowledge of geography to plan for my future. I’m going to travel the world with my friends when we’re older, and it will be helpful to learn all I can first. I read the quote by Lao Tzu, “A journey of a thousand miles begins
with a single step,” and I think that step is to get ready. I can’t exactly pack up and fly to France this second, but I will someday. Right now all I can do is prepare. The more I know about the world, the better equipped I’ll be to enjoy it. Abraham Verghese says, “I’m a great believer in geography being destiny.”
Lastly, I want to make the most of everything around me. God created this entire world, the very least I can do is hear about what’s out there. God describes His followers as, “The people whom I formed for myself that they might declare my praise,” in Isaiah 43:21. What better way to proclaim His praise than to appreciate His amazing works? God must be honored when we marvel at His creation, the same way I like it when someone compliments one of my paintings.
I didn’t have much of a choice about studying geography this year, but I’m happy to get the opportunity. I can’t wait to see what I can learn. This is about God’s breathtaking world, after all. “The earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof, the world and those who dwell therein, for He has founded it upon the seas and established it upon the rivers.”--Psalm 24:1-2.
My dream is to be an artist. I have it all planned out from entering contests now to art college to selling my work in my own store that preferably influences the entire world. That's a pretty big dream, I know, but I know I'm unique so I might just be able to make it happen. I've always had this idea about being an artist in my mind, but I think I started to take it seriously around sixth grade. There was this mini art contest at my homeschool co-op that I entered a painting into. Nothing came of that, but it put the idea in my head. I thought about it for a few months and began to make my plan. I remember one night I was supposed to be sleeping but I couldn't stop thinking about my future art career. I got this random burst of excitement as the idea became real in my mind. I was cuddling with a stuffed cupcake dog and all I could do at that moment was squeeze it as tightly as possible. I hugged my dream and my heart right into that dog. It sort of became my good luck stuffed animal after that. If I'm not mistaken, that same dog, Pugsy, was there when I opened my email two years later and read the words, "Congratulations, your work has been accepted for publication!" At that moment the dream was really real. My heart skipped a beat.
A friend is someone
To always be happy for you.
A friend is someone
Who lets you see their messy room.
A friend is someone
To be there forever.
A friend is someone
Who dances like they don't care with you.
A friend is someone
To act like a kid with at any age.
A friend is someone
Who takes selfies and vacuums candy with you.
A friend is someone
To get into messes with.
A friend is someone
Who laughs with you.
A friend is someone
To share crazy memories with.
A friend is someone
Who plots with you.
A friend is someone
To make you enjoy watching the stupid movie.
A friend is someone
Who lets you be weird.
A friend is someone
To whip pillows at.
A friend is someone
Who can stay up all night with you.
A friend is someone
To talk to.
A friend is someone
Who makes you smile.
At first it's just a smirk
And then maybe a smile
A tickle in your chest
A grin from mile to mile
A snort is in your throat
It won't be swallowed back
A single laugh gets out
Before giggles attack
It's all started
And now it will not stop
Face aflame
And shaking bottom to top
You cannot pause the tidal wave
The tears are in your eyes
This humorous delight
Well, it has no disguise
Your body is in chaos
As all your systems panic
But right now it's all ok
Not at all like being sick
You've never felt so happy
You're light as a balloon
As laughter echoes through the night
Your smiles reach the moon
You try to get a grip
Suck desperately for air
You’re so close to a stop
But then you dare
You cast a glance at her
And look her in the eye
And then you both collapse
To laugh until you cry
You wake up
To the blue and purple haze
Of a dream.
Sleep is heavy on your eyes.
Part of you is still in that world
Where everything is light and carefree.
The rest of you is in reality,
Feeling heavy and exhausted.
You're disappointed
Because a dream is just that:
A dream.
You know it now.
What do you do?
You could roll over
And try to go back to sleep,
Or you could rub your eyes,
Push away the mist,
And get up.
Slip your shoes on.
Say hello to the morning.
Greet the world.
Live in reality
And bring your dream along.
Take a step
Even just a small one,
And then take another
To bring that dream
Into reality.
Do you believe in magic?
In worlds through wardrobe doors?
Do you believe in wizards' schools?
In good to evil wars?
I believe.
After all, what is logic to begin with?
The fundamental way things are,
Plain and simple,
But what if there's another logic?
What if things are fixed differently for others?
What if some things aren’t fixed at all?
What if anything is possible?
That’s the only logic.
My heart believes in magic.
My head believes it, too,
But deep deep down,
In both head and heart,
I know I'll never see it.
The closet holds no world for me.
There's nothing between platforms nine and ten.
I believe in magic,
But magic won't believe in me.
I have seen magic.
Oh, silly me!
I don't need the talking animals.
I can do without the spells.
I have seen magic—
The magic of a smile,
The magic of transfiguring tears,
And time’s own diamond vial.
I believe in fairy bells
That tinkle as we laugh,
In the vigorous dance of life,
And the beat to which we tap
I believe in worlds of words,
Pages that invite you in.
I believe in color and in light,
Where magic can begin.
I believe in magic,
The magic of my life.
I may never meet a unicorn
Or greet the mighty centaur,
But who’s to say
That they aren’t real?
Magic is real.
After all,
We're alive
And surrounded by magic
All the time.
Maybe I'm cool.
Maybe I'm fine,
But when I'm with you.
I lose my mind.
I might be insane,
But why use my brain?
It's fun to be stupid.
We don't break the rules,
We don't cross the lines,
But we might break our bones,
And the lines do get bent.
We're teenage girls
Expanding our worlds
And this is the best time.
To be alive.
I'm normally calm.
Compared to other kids I'm an angel,
But I'm still stupid
And smart about it.
I am careful
That as far as I can see,
The only person I could hurt is me,
So let's go a little crazy
And laugh until it hurts
And then just be.
Sometimes I feel like I'm in a yellow mood. I feel very happy and I always smile when I feel yellow. Sometimes I can't help bouncing around like crazy. It is quite fun to be in a yellow mood.
I listen. I think. Always when I hear someone talking about something other than video games, I listen. Always when I have a question, I think. And then inspiration strikes. Out of nowhere a careless comment or a silly question creates the basis for a short story of even a novel. They say writers are great thieves, and it's true. I wrote this all down. If it is too amazing to wait, I start working right away. Otherwise I save it to fight off any writer's block I may encounter.
I pull out a notebook, take it to my back deck, and start with that inspiration. I take that idea that fell from the sky, and then I build it out with creativity. I breath life into the characters by answering a list of simple questions about them, making them unique pieces of myself. I map out the plot, making it different from the story I found it in, adding my own bits and pieces until it can only be recognized as my own beautiful idea.
Next I write the first draft. I just get it out. I write a page or more and then I stop to think, to find more inspiration. Sometimes I need a chocolate break, or to take myself away from it entirely and play outside. However long it takes, I get it all down and then
the editing process begins.
I edit thoroughly, pausing to consider every detail and reworking many parts. I go through my checklist of aspects to pay attention to, and then I reread it again to get it to perfection. After this I type it into Google Docs, making little changed along the way. And then my baby is ready and I find a way to share it with someone.
This is how I work. Maybe it's different for you, but I love to write with the birds chirping around me. I pause occasionally to look towards the woods before turning back to my paper and pencil. I like to plan it all out first. Once I start the real writing, then it can just flow free without any hindrance. That is the best part.
Dear Future Me,
How does it feel to be an adult? It feels weird enough to be 13! Today Mom was working on school for next year and I saw a paper that said 'Abigail Rater -- Grade 8' at the top. It just looked so big! Not as crazy as 'Kennedy Rater -- Grade 10', though. How about 'Mason Rater -- Grade 4' or 'Maddy Rater -- Grade 2'. I can't believe how old we're getting! Your well past all of those by now, though. Did you go to college like I plan to? Were you able to major in art and writing? Did you make a career for yourself? Enough questions. I've been trying hard to get my work out there and I'm sure the answer to all three questions will be yes! If not, well, I guess it's God's plan. No matter what, I hope you have, do, and will use the talents that God gave you for His glory. If not, it's never too late to start. 2020 has been a bit of a rough year for us, but there is still so much to be thankful for. God gives us new reasons to smile every day, after all.
Sincerely,
Your Past Self,
Abby Rater
Dear Baby Alives, Hello! I guess you think my name is Erica or Bella Ballerina. Well, I'm not really either of them. My name is Abby and it always has been. When we played together my sister (you usually knew her as Annalise) and I liked to pretend to be our favorite characters and those were some of them. Sorry about that confusion. Now I'm just Abby.
I remember the day I got you, it was a busy Christmas of rushing around celebrating with every single relative. I think I was very tired by the time we got to Great Grandma's house. I unwrapped the first four of you hurriedly and, I'm sorry, I wasn't too interested. I must have been distracted by all of the people talking and laughing, all of the sugary food (even though we had just stuffed ourselves at Nana's), and the wrapping paper flying everywhere! I spent the ride home crying over a stuffed bear because she had '2013' stitched on her paw and it didn't look or sound nearly as nice as 2012. After that I just forgot about you, so you lived on the kitchen table for about two months. I'm sorry.
Mom was actually about to donate you but, thank goodness, my sister and I got bored and decided to open you. Of course we instantly fell in love. Your faces were so cute and you were just the right size to take on any adventure. I was either very generous or incapable of playing on my own and I let my sister have Mackaila and Hailey, but I kept Ella and Lilly to myself. My sister got Sarina and Sydney for her next birthday and when Sarina hurt her neck we managed to meet the other Sarina and the other Sydney! I misread one of the boxes when the next two came along so someone called Louaou came with the other Lilly. Last to come was Lulu and our group was complete.
I'm sorry we doubled up on so many names and I'm very sorry that we named your home Baby Bikini World! We had picked up the word 'bikini' somewhere and we thought it was very fun to say (because it is).
We had some very fun times picking a "Cutest" each day to receive special treatment and swaddling up in old baby socks at night. Instead of going to sleep right away we would stay up late talking and pretending we were in dreams. Do you remember?
You were such a big part of my life and I owe so much to you! You were the models for a lot of my early drawings (my sister and I wouldn't hang any pictures up in our room besides the ones we made of you!) and now a piece of my artwork is going to be published in a real book. The first story I ever wrote was about you, and now I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't figure things out by writing about them. What about crafts? The experience of sewing tiny cloths for you has helped when a stuffed animal needs fixed or my favorite pants have a rip. Thank you for all of it.
We used to talk while doing math, but last year I worked hard to focus on my pre-algebra textbook (and I was only in seventh grade). We used to clean up our messes slowly using my brother's toy dump trucks, but now I fold laundry just because I like to be useful. We used to pretend that I was your babysitter, but now I can actually stay home alone with my younger siblings. I've changed a bit, I guess. I'm more mature now, but I'm really not that different.
I know I don't play with you every day like I used to and maybe I get embarrassed when I forget to put you away when my friends come over (sorry!) but I still love you. I love the sharpie smudge on Louaou's cheek, Sarina's wobbly head, and the loss of almost all of your shoes and binkies that reminds me of all our old fun. That's right, I'm still the same little girl with the poofy skirt and the constant giggle. I still love dolls and other babyish things and that's ok. I still jump at the chance to watch a Barbie movie with my little sister and that's ok. I am responsible and I am a child. Yes, I can have both. Nobody is stopping me from loving my dolls, not even maturity! I will always love you and any other harmless thing I like and it's all thanks to you. Thank you for being so lovable that I just have to be like this, because it makes life a lot brighter when the world is in chaos.
Sincerely Your Loving Kid,
Abby Rater
P.S.
If you see any Polly Pockets or LOL Dolls, please share that last part with them. The American Girl Dolls also say hi and thanks.
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With a hand that shook she picked up the phone. "Yes, this is her," she says in a high voice, or more of a squeal. "Are you for real? Yes! Yes, I can do that! Thank you so much!" That night she said a prayer of thanks.
On the night of the show she stood up in front of the crowd and sang. Her voice was as soft as silk but her words did not ring true. She used to sing songs with her faith as the theme, but this crowd did not want that sort of thing. The swarm of new fans kept her from the door and she met each one with a smile.
On the night of her tenth show, the face goo just felt gross, the jewels dead weight, the dress too open, the lights such a glare, the cheers from foul mouths, and her own voice flat and dead. This was all wrong. What had she done? What could she do? But then she knew.
With a deep breath she began to sing. It was not the song of teen love and pop beats, but of her true love and praise for God. She did not want one part of fame if it meant she would throw out her faith.
I get out the dollar store pallet of watercolor paint and the magenta cup full of all kinds of brushes and covered in all colors of paint splotches. I inhale deeply and find the comforting smell of paint like an old, musty friend. I take a piece of paper and place it on the wide area of newspaper put there to protect the already messy tabletop. Time to paint. I've always loved to draw and paint for as long as I can remember, and my parents say I'm really good at art for a third grader, but my paintings usually only consist of dozens of random blobs. I hope that that's about to change. I pick up an odd type of secret weapon, a thin-tipped brush, not considering the amazing power that it most certainly holds. I paint the outline of a dolphin in black. I color it in with blue and continue to paint all the other sea life I've studied in my co-op science class. I look at my handiwork with astonishment. A smile spreads across my face. This actually looks like something. I can hardly wait to show my mom, my science teacher, my grandma, everyone. This is only the beginning.
The day Elizabeth's life changed started like any other day. Grabbing her Bible from a bedside shelf along with a flashlight, Elizabeth paused to look at the brown leather cover of her precious Bible. She was proud of the book and it made her feel grown-up, even if it was in the easiest translation available. Elizabeth's dad was constantly reminding her that the words inside the Bible and, more importantly, the God who inspired them were what really mattered, not the pretty outside.
After her Bible reading, Elizabeth went into her closet to get dressed. She sighed rapturously, looking at the long plaid dress with the cute white collar and tiny buttons down the bodice. The pink dress had a simple bonnet with it on the hanger. This was Elizabeth's favorite dress; her Mom had looked at several costume shops and online but eventually she had had to sew the dress herself. It was Elizabeth's eighth birthday present. It was perfect, but she had no idea how her parents knew. Elizabeth hadn't told anyone (not even Rosa, her best friend) about her obsession. They all knew that she was doing well in history, but nobody knew how much she wanted to live in the 1840s. This was a bit of a strange obsession, and of course an
impossible wish, but every chance she got, Elizabeth imagined herself as a pioneer. The reason Elizabeth hadn't told anyone was that she was afraid people would act like she acted about the Bible and judge by the outside, even if it did work out well for the Bible.
With much more of a flat sigh, Elizabeth reached behind the dress to get a denim jacket. She pulled this on over her t-shirt, which was black with a sparkly purple music note outlined with silver studs. Purple leggings completed the look. Rosa had said this outfit was awesome (she had picked it out) but Elizabeth would much rather have worn the 1800s dress.
Elizabeth bounced down the short hall to breakfast and hardly noticed the glances her Mom and Dad kept shooting at each other. They were half-nervous and half-excited glances. Elizabeth wolfed down her toast and ignored what could have been awkward silence. After a few minutes (or an eternity depending on who you ask) Mom said, "Lizzie, could you get your sister up, we have some important news for you two." Elizabeth jumped up to wake her older sister.
"What's so important that I have to wake up early?" Elizabeth's sister grumbled as she stumbled out in her pajamas.
"Vikki, Lizzie, your mother and I have something to tell you. You may not take it well, but this is what will be best for you two,” Dad said. Elizabeth's stomach lurched. She had read a conversation that began similar to this one in a book once, and the outcome was not good. Elizabeth could hardly swallow the toast in her mouth. Palms sweating and mind reeling, Elizabeth expected the worst. What her parents actually said made her laugh a bit. "We're moving out to Warren,” was what Dad said.
Elizabeth was busy being relieved, but Vikki had no such occupation. “Are you kidding!?! Warren?! I won't ever be able to see my friends! Why would you do this?! You're ruining my life!" she cried before jumping up and stomping back to her room. Everything was silent after the passionate outburst, then Dad chuckled.
"Well that woke her up," he said.
Mom swatted at him with a towel and said, “I'd better go talk to her."
As they continued with breakfast, Elizabeth asked Dad, "We're still going to see our friends sometimes, right?"
"Of course! Warrin is right near Kinzoo, that bridge we visited last summer. It isn't too far a drive for friends to visit, it just won't be as convenient as it is now. You'll also make new friends at your new school,” he explained. Elizabeth hadn't even thought about switching schools. She didn't know why, but this idea excited her; at the innermost part of her mind, she felt that she was doing something wrong at her current school. Elizabeth still had more questions. "When are we going to move?" she inquired. "We already know what house we're going to buy, but we scheduled the closing date really far out in mid-July. We probably won't put this house up for sale until that month so we can stay here right up until that closing date," Dad told her.
The worst part was going to be telling Rosa. Elizabeth dreaded this and tried to avoid her friend at school, but at lunch Rosa couldn't be avoided any longer. “Lizzie, is there a problem? You've stayed away from me all day long. Are you mad at me?" Rosa asked right off when Elizabeth sat down at their normal table.
"What? Of course I'm not mad at you! Why would I be? I do have something to tell you, though,” Elizabeth lowered her eyes to stare at her lunch tray at that last phrase.
"Well spit it out already!" Rosa demanded.
“I'm moving. To Warren. We're leaving in about five months," Elizabeth said, preparing herself for some form of emotional outburst from her friend. Rosa looked crushed at first but soon a smile spread across her face.
“Is it April fools day and nobody told me?” she asked.
“Nope, it's still March. I'm really leaving,” Elizabeth said.
"Oh,” Rosa's face fell again, but her smile returned a moment later. "At least we still have five months, and half of that is Summer vacation. Let's have the best five months of our lives, and once you move I'll visit every month, Warren isn't so far away," Rosa said brightly. They started to make plans and soon Rosa's short brown curls were bouncing as she jumped up and down in excitement.
They did have the best five months ever, hanging out together almost every day, going to the lake, camping, fairs, and carnivals, and licking ice cream cones. Then it was time to go. Elizabeth didn't mind leaving the tiny house so much, it was saying goodbye to her friends that made her sad, but not as sad as she had expected to feel. Saying goodbye to Rosa was the worst part, but they agreed to email at least every week and visit each other every month.
Moving was crazy, even if they still owned their old house and didn't have to do it all at once. For a few days some of their furniture and other things were in one house while the rest was in the other, so something as simple as brushing their teeth could become a long search through lots of boxes and eventually a trip to the local store to buy new toothbrushes. The thing is that Dad hadn't wanted to rent a moving truck so he could save money, but really that would have simplified some things, and the gas money amounted to the same price a moving truck would be.
It was August by the time they were settled in and Elizabeth had time to explore. Now she had her own bedroom (helpful for when she woke up before Vikki, which was always) with a bookshelf on one wall, her bed on another along with the door, and her closet and dresser on the third wall. The walls were a sunny yellow and would soon be full of photos of friends and sketches of birds and flowers. On the fourth wall was a beautiful bay window with a view of the backyard, the woods behind it, and the mountain rising up behind the woods. It was her dream room, and Elizabeth could not wait to explore what lay beyond the window.
Elizabeth slowly walked through the woods, paying attention to every beautiful detail. Seeing something shimmer in the mid-morning sunshine, Elizabeth ran towards it, holding up her pioneer dress. She had worn it because she thought nobody would be around to see. Elizabeth must have looked quite silly splashing in the water in her old-fashioned dress, but she was having fun. She was in fact having so much fun that she didn't notice the girl approaching.
"Hello there! You look like you’re having fun!" the girl said.
"Oh! I was just looking for my bracelet. I dropped it,” Elizabeth immediately lied. She looked down, pretending to search, and saw the hem of her costume. Oh no! This was embarrassing. Then her eyes traveled out a bit and she saw a hem much like hers. The girls stared at each other for a moment. Elizabeth stared at the other girl's light blue, flower-speckled dress, white apron, and lacey collar. The dress was slightly loose on the girl's thin frame, also it was a bit wrinkled and had a few dirt stains. The girl had wavy blonde hair in a bun at her neck, which was messy in a pretty way. What was most interesting about this girl was her bright green eyes, which were big and curious.
Meanwhile, those curious eyes were studying Elizabeth. Her dark brown hair was in two loose braids, tied with ribbons, under her bonnet and her face, though startled and confused, was friendly. The soaked skirt of the dress looked very comical.
"Nice dress,” Elizabeth said at last in a quiet voice.
“Yeah, you too," the other girl giggled.
"I'm not really looking for a bracelet,” Elizabeth admitted.
“I didn't think it would make sense to chase it upstream,” the observant girl said. “I’m Emily, what's your name?" she asked.
“My name is Lizzie,” Elisabeth said.
"Is that short for Elizabeth?" Emily asked. Elisabeth nodded. "Why would you shorten it? Elizabeth is such a pretty name,” Emily said.
“Actually, I agree with you, it’s just that it sounds old fashioned and I don't want anyone to think I'm weird,” Elizabeth said, deciding she could probably tell Emily, who had already seen the costume and wore a similar one.
"Why do you care if they think you're weird? You are but in a good way like me. Who cares who knows it,” Emily said.
This turned a light on in Elizabeth's brain. "Ok, I think I can be myself at school, if you help. I'm going into fifth grade this year; do you think we'll be in the same class?" Elizabeth asked.
"No, I'm not going to school here,” Emily said sadly.
"Oh, I thought since you live around here..." Elizabeth began.
"Actually, I don't... anymore, I was just taking one last walk through the woods. I didn't realize you moved in already, " Emily said, trying not to cry.
"Oh, I get it. You used to live in the house my family just bought,” Elizabeth said.
"Sort of..." and then Emily broke into tears.
Once she had stopped her tears, Emily motioned for Elizabeth to follow her deeper into the woods. Presently the girls came to a clearing which was surrounded by a thick circle of pine trees. In the center of the clearing was a quaint wooden cottage. It looked like something out of Little House on the Prairie, but not quite so welcoming. Through the window Elizabeth saw that it was empty. The whole place felt lonely. Emily gripped Elizabeth's hand tightly and tears slowly rolled down her thin cheeks again. “This was your home, wasn't it,” Elizabeth whispered. Emily nodded. “Why are yον leaving?"
Taking a breath, Emily began to explain. "My Dad lost his job last year. The company went bankrupt. At first we stayed at our house while he looked for a job, but then the bank took it because we couldn't pay. Not knowing what to do, Dad turned to a friend who used to live at your house. He said he didn't have the room to shelter us, but he had a lot of money and property, so he built us this cabin. It's small, but we made it home. Everything was great until the owner of that house died and his relatives decided to sell it. Since we were on his property, we had to move, too. I was just coming for one last look before we move to my aunt’s house.”
"Wait, so my family owns this cabin now?" Elizabeth asked. Emily nodded again. "Well then you can stay!"
"What?! Shouldn't you ask your parents?"
"They lecture my sister and I all the time about showing kindness and helping the poor. Of course they'll say yes!"
Emily blushed but she was too excited to be embarrassed for long. "We can be best friends!" she said.
"We'll do everything together!" said Elizabeth.
"Just promise me one thing."
“What?”
"We'll always be ourselves together, even in public."
"Deal,” Elizabeth said with a smile.
The soft hum of voices
Sends me into daydreams.
Every note of the encouraging message
Makes my heart sing along.
A friend's sparkling smile
Prompts me to burst.
Her funny texts
Are like candy in my mouth.
A book is a portal to another world
That I joyously bring back to my own.
Each character is so real,
It's like they're all my friends.
Swirls of color make someone's dreams
And I can't tear my eyes from the canvas.
The sheer beauty
Takes my breath away.
Life is amazing
And incredibly inspiring.
I feel buoyant and beautiful
Taking it all in.
I itch to be in action;
My fingers vibrate for the nearest pencil.
Ideas are being stirred.
I can feel it fizzing up inside of me.
The yearning is too much
When I see the world outside.
Every frosted branch,
All of the clear water,
It calls me.
I pour out all of my feelings.
With the brushes on my desk.
Intense inspiration flows from my fingertips
And a smile is always on my lips.
I dream and I create.
Maybe someday
I’ll inspire someone else
And the cycle will keep on rolling
And coloring the world.
Cheeks red as cherries
Snow so white and pure
See the Christmas fairies
You'll be smiling for sure
They fly all around town
Singing far off key
Don't tell them to quiet down
I hope they'll come and visit me
They deck every haul
Every wreath they hang
They're having a jolly ball
As holiday songs are sang
Their lights are twinkling
Before every eye
The warm glow sets us dreaming
Deep into the night sky
Art--
My brush floats across the canvas,
Dashing to and fro.
I let all my feeling out right there,
Living colors
Of joy.
I don't need
To be shy.
There's no reason
To be afraid.
I can let myself go,
Be crazy as I want,
Dramatic as ever.
No one will judge.
Mistakes are ok,
In fact, bound to happen.
It's all part of the process.
Art makes me feel free,
Transparent as my watercolors,
Graceful as the dove
Emerging from my brush.
I can be
Whatever I want
To be!
I can capture all the beauty;
Everything magical
In the world around me,
All that I see
With my eyes.
Eyes--
They let me see the world outside.
I take it all in:
Deep blue skies,
Blooming flowers,
Falling leaves,
And soft ripples in the water.
My eyes let me see
All the people around me
With their smiling faces,
Tender looks of love,
And every emotion.
I see their eyes,
And then their personality.
Are they big and bright,
Taking it all in
With enthusiasm,
Or half closed,
Just waiting for slumber?
What about the color?
Is it clear and sure
Or dull and muddled?
Is there a mix of color--
A range as wide,
As deep,
As confusing and utterly wonderful
As the personality
Of the eye's wearer?
Please, I invite you,
Dive into the shining pool.
Of mystery.
Now please don't take for granted
This privilege that we have.
I urge you, take advantage
Of your windows to the world.
Share with those
In a world of darkness.
I want to let them see
Through my eyes
With my words.
Words--
Feeling out on paper,
Running across the screen,
Or just hanging in the air.
Feel how they twinkle and gleam!
Like the laughter of the creek,
They express our greatest joy.
Like the moaning of the wind,
They portray our every longing.
Each feeling comes alive
And is set free
By the simply clicking syllables.
Stories come to light,
Offering comfort
Or confrontation
As we step into
A whole new world
And bring back a treasure
To beautify our own.
Oh, when the right words click!
I suppose the angels sing
At the flood of satisfaction,
The completed perfection
Of one heartfelt sonet.
When I write,
It makes me feel brave
To say what is true,
To really be me!
Oh, the relife
When a smile breaks out
At the sound of my words!
Above it all,
I love the fall
Of the sounds
In every place.
It brings such a beauty
You just can’t erase.
Have you ever had the feeling
That your heart was made of air,
Buoyant as the clouds,
Beautiful and fair?
When all the good seems multiplied,
Your happiness is doubled.
When all bad feelings are left behind,
Were you ever really troubled?
I'm not sure about you, but I do.
I start to feel this way,
So peaceful and so pleased,
On a bright, vivid fall day.
When the orange trees reach and reach.
They try to touch the deep blue sky,
Which reflects the other's brightness
As the hours and days go by.
I'm reminded of my friends,
Our giggles as we play.
We laugh and laugh and laugh,
Or talk the time away!
I think that some of us are the sky,
And others make the trees.
We're made to glow brighter together
As we smile on with ease.
Wind rustles in the leaves,
I notice as each one gleams
That the sun is setting from behind.
The world is gold, it seems.
I see all of this beauty
As the leaves remember summer sun.
They put on quite a show
To keep up all the fun!
I remember this day last year
And all of the good ol’ times.
I'm excited for it all again
When there's nothing new to put in rhymes.
I always keep my eyes open.
There's always something new.
I love, love, love the past,
But there's more fun in the present, too!
Everything is so exciting!
I can't bear to wait for tomorrow,
Though I never want today to end!
There's always a thing to learn, a new way to grow.
True, school can be quite dull.
Over math I feel my eyelids drop,
But I love to know I'm learning,
And sometimes I don't want to stop!
I like it best to have art before my eye
Or perhaps a book in my hand.
I get the strangest feeling,
You might not understand.
I feel the ideas stir inside of me.
I itch to grab the nearest pencil
And pour all the inspiration out.
My hands and mind just can’t sit still!
Splash!
He hops into the pond.
The silk water ripples.
The pink flowers laugh
At the tickle of the waves.
They are beautiful and pleasant,
Yes, this is true--
And so very sweet, but oh so still.
The frog is what jumps.
He hops for happiness.
His little jump of pure joy,
It affects the whole pond.
Soon all is up and active,
Laughing and singing,
All because of one tiny frog
And his beautiful little bounce.
Season flipped, now it's fall
Time to get ready for some fun, y'all
The leaves slowly change their hue
Just to warm the eyes of me and you
All the world is one bright fire
Dressed in a vivid orange attire
These leaves mean second chances
Fall, then wait for the avalanches
Winter passes, they return
The sharpest pine and the smallest fern
But for now we simply sit
To enjoy the peace of all of it
We smile at the glow inside
From the soft pumpkin spice you can't hide
Days of leaf piles and hay bales
And we can't forget the sweater sales
Smell the sharp, tangy bonfire
Joy and praise fly higher and higher
Through the great ocean above
Through every cloud, sculpted with love
Soon to reach the Lord of all
The very One who gave us this fall
If only I had wings,
I'd strain to reach
The top of the box;
The edge of the world,
Where the stars are all stuck
To the dark, cold ceiling.
I'd chase all the fireflies
As high as they tease me from,
Just to feel their warm glow
In the palm of my hand
Before letting go.
I go out for a swing
On one warm summer night
And pump myself so high
I think I may start to fly!
I breathe in the nighttime air,
Feel the wind
Kiss my cheek
And toss my hair,
And smile up at the sky
To get lost in the stars.
At any moment this rope may snap,
And when it does,
Watch me sprout great wings,
Large as my imagination,
And fly away
To my home in the stars
Where all is safe.
I'll bid goodbye to the ground,
Hello to the moon,
Such a jolly father he is. mother he is.
I’ll greet my siblings, the stars,
Sparkling and laughing with them.
I’ll glimpse my mother, sun,
Hard at work on the other side,
And wave hello..
I will continue to swim
Through the loving atmosphere;
Straining to reach the top,
Always just a few strokes away,
Never quite reaching it,
But still enjoying the journey,
Until I'll snap awake and realize:
I didn't travel to the sky,
I was already there.
I am now a new teen
And so I'm in between
Young and old,
Old and new.
I'm stuck inside my chrysalis,
Waiting to become a butterfly
But not really wanting to.
I miss being a caterpillar,
When my days were all just fun.
I’m just above the limit
Of my innocent MG books.
And just a bit too scared
For the daunting YA ones.
Too big for my old, simple bike,
Too short for my 10-speed.
Young enough still to love my dolls,
Old enough to be embarrassed about it.
I can enter the contests for teens,
But their writing all stands over mine.
I'm eye level with their elbows,
And their shoulders lock together,
Blocking out the sky for me.
The days of those clean stanzas
With ever-perfect rhyme,
They are all gone.
My words are scrambled,
But falling back together
In a lovely loose verse.
I will be a butterfly
And spread my colorful wings
With an intensified joy,
With more freedom than ever
To be me.
Boredom.
I long to go someplace new.
Boredom.
And do exciting things, too.
Boredom.
A far off place I wish to roam.
Boredom.
But we are only staying home.
Home.
The place I am every day.
Home.
Where all my siblings run and play.
Home.
Of the love I am quite sure.
Home.
Here I can find adventure.
Adventure.
Always something new to find.
Adventure.
Be it real or in my mind.
Adventure.
Imagination and much more!
Adventure.
Now I know it's time to explore.
Explore.
I find the meaning in each wall.
Explore.
Now what will I see down the hall?
Explore.
I greet the magic at each bend.
Explore.
Really, the fun knows no end!
The drizzle turned to rain.
The rain began to pour,
Cooling the humid air
And creating countless opportunities.
We rush outside
And smell the fresh air.
We run around
With no destination,
Simply splashing in laps
Of joy.
We dance in the rain,
Turning our faces to the sky,
Happy
To be alive.
Thunder chases us inside.
Two by two we go,
Slipping and laughing happily.
It's the perfect time,
It seems to me,
To dive into a different realm
By cracking open a novel.
And then the storm passes
And the sun shines again.
The smooth, full puddles
Are the mirrors where
The beautiful sky checks her reflection
And the good natured trees.
Inspect their burly curls.
The creek now flows better than ever,
Like a stream of liquid life,
Carrying every every hope.
Every dream,
All the smiles,
All the laughter,
And everything else
In her sparkling current.
The reeds and leaves crowd close.
Every lovely glimmer of water
That falls upon their graceful forms
Is illuminated
In the sunshine.
What a wonderful day
The Lord has made!
A perfect time
To feel Christ's love.
Some think that rainy days
Symbolize terrible things,
But I find
So many blessings.
I entered through the magical archway,
Its light flowers beckoning with fanciful beauty.
The woods, they call me from afar
With sharp, tingly scents of green
And sweet, clear scales of birdsong.
I am swallowed by the canopy of greenery
With the sun slanting through.
The dappled light is dancing
In the light and lovely breeze.
I long to uncover secrets,
To find enchanted kingdoms
Just beyond that next hump.
Butterflies pass me light as air
And it seems that all is possible.
I strive to find the hidden paradise,
Always just out of reach.
Monday.
I eagerly await the end of this week,
The start of May.
Maybe I'll take a stroll in the creek,
But will it be to celebrate
Or to ease my disappointment?
To know this I cannot wait.
Did they like the entry I sent?
Tuesday.
The ground is a magical carpet
Of a flowery array.
Only a few have not bloomed yet;
Most have opened up their glorious petals
To show what makes them so lovely
And when the right time calls
I will bloom, too. Just wait and see.
Wednesday.
I have smiled all night in bed
And also all day.
My art has been accepted!
I have new confidence
That my writing could be, too.
My excitement is immense;
How to contain it, I have no clue.
Thursday.
I bickered with my little sister
In a childish way.
She offended me about a picture.
I came at her with my paintbrush.
I failed to keep my anger in
But next time, into rage I will not rush.
When we fail, second chances let us win.
Friday.
I did not do it this time
But it's okay.
I'll keep on using rhythm and rhyme
To honor God, the One who made me
And gave me the talent and passion.
I will always be loved by Him, you see.
He is here, no matter what may happen.
On a perfect spring day I step out the back door
And it’s far more exciting than my brother’s high score.
I can’t take his video game talk anymore.
I am hit by all the wonder at once.
Beautiful things to behold by the bunch!
My breath is swept away in a kind punch.
The warm air wraps around me in a light loving hug.
The sweet smell of lilac attracts me and many a bug.
I hear moss soak up water at the pace of a slug.
What shall I do with a day like today?
Live. Just live in the most joyful way.
Forget and forgive the snow as I say…
“Thanks to our Creator, God,
For He is so very good!”
I want my own book of poetry,
My heart in words for all to see.
All of my hopes and all of my fears
From all of these wonderful years,
Years of me only being myself,
In a neat volume on the shelf.
I want my poems there to inspire
And to make hopes rise a little higher,
But what I want more than that would be
To honor the God who loves me,
To share his mercy and grace about.
You see, talents aren't just given out.
No, God examines carefully
To see what most fits you or me
So we can do our best possible
And use our talents to they're full
To spread the love
Of God above.
Sunlight filters through the leaves,
Each with its face turned up
To meet the sunshine
And glow.
Against the pale blue sky,
Their joyful light and life
Fills my eyes
With color.
The stripes of bark and foliage
Extend as far as I can see,
Concealing magical adventures
All the way.
I long to swim
Through the shining sea
Of delicate ferns
To uncover
Those adventures.
I see a mess of long lost trees
Which look to have been cleanly chopped
Many years ago.
I wonder who has done it.
The thought is so vivid,
I can almost see their cabin
Beyond the trees.
Back in real life,
In the present day,
I feel a firm log beneath me
And soft leaves
Gently tickling my thigh.
I have stopped jumping
At the loose hairs
Blowing against my shoulders.
They don't feel like spiderwebs
Anymore
Because parinoía
Is gone.
A queen bee's buzz
Doesn't startle me,
But instead blends
With the incredible chorus.
Of birdcall
And the unusually quiet hum
Of my rambunctious sister's voice.
The stench of bug spray
Doesn't bother me.
It is muted
By the fresh, tangy smell
Of greenery.
It even adds
A sort of summer-like
Sweetness.
In the hollow
Of our own imagination.
Writing, drawing, dreaming
With my sister by my side.
Both with notebooks in our laps,
Happy to have each other.
To understand
The other's thoughts,
To enjoy
The other's hobbies.
To adventure
Together,
But to still be unique.
Being our own people,
Doing the same things
But each in our own way
In the hollow.
Shopping with my teenage sister.
Picking out fun clothes with her.
Eat our fast food in the car
While rain pours down so hard.
Come home to go back out.
To splash in the puddles with no pout.
To bounce on the trampoline
Because more fun we've never seen.
Then she wants to go back in.
"Can we play a board game, then?"
But no, she doesn't want to play.
She hasn't had her phone all day.
And now it's all she wants to do,
Abandoning everything, including me, too.
It's always like that and it's alright
For her to text all day and night.
But today is different,
Today she did some things with me
And now I see an opportunity.
We have started and I don't want to stop.
I want to end the day perfectly like a cherry on top.
We hike through the woods,
Down towards the creek,
Paying no mind to mud.
Adventures we seek.
And there it is running
So clear and so cool,
So thick and so fast.
It encases rocks, trees, and logs.
The sound of its flowing,
Like a breath of fresh air,
Sends tingles up and down
As it relaxes my body.
We think of water as blue,
But look a little closer
To see the real colors.
The clear water shows
The dark mud below
And reflects white and blue light
From the sun and the sky
On the surface.
All you must do is
Look a little closer.
Oh, the wonders God has made!
He is so incredibly amazing!
“June 15, 2050
Dear Diary,
Today I boarded the Stardust. The captain, Roger Lillings, seems to like me, maybe. I think I’m in love with him. Maybe someday, Rodger and I will be married and our kid will be reading this diary. Wow, I am getting way ahead of myself!”
Ridley Lillings smiles as she reads through the old entry in her mother’s journal. Her mom really hadn’t gotten ahead of herself, Rodger proposed six years after the ship took off, and a year after that Ridley was born. Now, thirteen years later, the rocket is due to land within the week. The small family’s life is about to change as they settle in a completely different star system. Ridley shudders and continues reading.
“The ship is OK, ish. It could be more inviting. The whole place is near the size of a New York City neighborhood. In fact, the apartments look almost exactly the same as those in New York; pretty plain. I was honestly hoping it would be more different, more inspiring. At least we can decorate however we want to with what we brought. I like how the ceiling is blue to remind us of Earth’s skies, but there are windows everywhere to remind us where we are and the
adventure we are on.
We are headed for Proxima Centauri b, a cold planet that orbits the red dwarf star Proxima Centauri, which is part of the binary star system called Alpha Centauri. We are traveling 36,319 mi./hr. (which is 21.3% the speed of light) to this system which is closest to ours at just 25 trillion miles away. The trip should take 20 years if all goes well.”
Ridley stops reading in frustration.
Cindy walks into Ridley’s small bedroom after getting no response to her knock on the door.
“What’s wrong, sis?” she asks after seeing the confusing mix of emotions on Ridley’s face.
They aren’t really related, but neither has any real siblings. Ridley is sure she couldn’t ask for a cooler, smarter big sister than Cindy. Cindy needs someone to talk to (none of the 50 passengers on the Stardust are her age) and Ridley understands her more than anybody else. You could say these girls have their own type of symbiosis.
When Ridley just gives a shrug, Cindy comes over and sits down next to her on the bed.
“Did you know there are more stars in space than grains of sand on the Earth?” Cindy asks, gazing out the window at the stars that look like only white streaks because of the crazy speed. “We get to see so many more of them than most people, and think how much more there is to explore on the new planet! Don’t you see how lucky we are?” she exclaims, trying to get emotion out of her almost sister.
“But it’s all so new! I’m not ready? All that book will tell me is facts I already know about that stupid planet!” Ridley cries angrily.
“Hey, this is going to be new for me, too. I was born two years after the Stardust took off. We’re ready, and I have an idea to prove it,” Cindy says.
“Really? What is it?” Ridley asks, perking up. Cindy’s ideas are always fun.
“Before I tell you, I need your help with a hydraulic arm I’m planning on building,” Cindy says.
“Fine, but I’m bad at science,” Ridley warns.
“We’ll see about that.”
“There is no way I can be of any help building that!” Ridley panics when she sees the complicated looking instructions.
“Don’t worry, this is only a practice model. We need to be sure we can rely on hydraulics for heavy lifting since the fortress we have to let us survive for more than 15 seconds out there may cause our electricity to act up. Don’t worry about the instructions; they look confusing, new, and scary at first but once you dive in and take it step by step it’s really fun,” Cindy says.
“OK,” Ridley says, taking a deep breath. “Let’s do it.”
“First we need a square base about eight by eight inches. We can use cardboard for that,” Cindy directs. Ridley neatly cuts the piece out of a large, thick rectangle.
“Now we need something that rotates to attach the arm to,” Cindy says. A four by four square of cardboard and a brad easily solve that problem. Next they cut out four rectangles that are six by two inches. They hot glue two of them across from each other an inch from the edges of the smaller of the two squares.
“Now what?” Ridley asks, excited.
“Well, these are some other pieces of the arm. We need to attach them in a way that lets it bend,” Cindy says. She holds up the two pieces identical to those already attached.
“We can use more brads for the joint!” Ridley suggests. The instructions aren’t needed now. After that part is attached, they need two eight by two inch rectangles to complete the arm. They attach them the same way, but an inch towards the middle. Now the arm part is complete. Time for the claw.
Taking a cardboard triangle, Cindy explains the claw to Ridley. “Now cut two small rectangles and set them aside. Little bigger, perfect! OK, now you have to cut out an obtuse angle that is one inch wide.” Cindy performs this part as she explains it so now they have two of the angle. Next they face the angles toward each other and glue a rectangle to the bottom of each one. These pieces then have a brad put through both of them and are attached with it to the original triangle, still facing each other. Taking two relatively long pieces of metal wire, Cindy pokes one through the edge of each rectangle and twists it so that it will stay. Ridley does the grips by herself under Cindy’s approving gaze. First she wraps a one by two inch cardboard rectangle over each end and, after securing them with brads, adds strips of hot glue so it will hang onto things better. When they glue the completed hand on, they add counterweights to the back of the base to keep it stable. Now it’s time for the real hydraulics.
After filling four syringes with differently colored water, they attach a tube to each syringe and attach another syringe to the opposite end. Once this is done, all they have to do is position the empty syringes so once the ends push out, each one pushes on a different movable part and attach them with glue or zip ties.
Finally it’s time for the test run. Holding her breath, Ridley pushes the red syringe to squeeze the water out, into the tube, and into the other syringe. The end pops out of the filling syringe, pushes on the base it’s attached to, and causes the whole thing to spin. “It worked! It worked!” Ridley cries.
“Not bad for your first try engineering!” Cindy says, high-fiving her almost sister.
“That was actually fun!” Ridley exclaims.
“Interesting,” Cindy says with a half smile.
“What?”
“Have you ever done this before?”
“You know I haven’t.”
“Interesting.”
“OK?”
“So would you call this an old experience?”
Ridley laughs, she knows exactly what’s going on now. “No,” she says, “It would be called a new experience.”
“New and fun, now that is interesting.”
“You were right, I guess new can be fun!” Ridley realizes. “I can hardly wait to try out this new planet!” she cries. Cindy smiles, mission accomplished.
“That's everything you'll need, and the instructions are right here. Tell me if you need anything, Ok," Dad said. Amy was looking for a hobby and Dad was a builder. Maybe building could be Amy's hobby. He wanted Amy to try building by herself to see if she was really good at it.
Amy picked up the instruction packet. It said "How to Build a Swing: an easy step-by-step project for kids," on the front in big letters.
Amy nailed together all the parts and tied the ropes after Dad drilled the holes. Amy hung the swing while Dad held the ladder. Now it was time to test it out.
Amy felt the wind in her hair and the way it gently resisted her legs as she kicked back for more speed. She felt amazing. The swing seemed to be working perfectly, or maybe not.
Suddenly Amy was flying farther, much farther, than she should have been. She was still sitting on the seat of the swing. . . but the ropes had come untied at the highest point! Amy braced herself for the impact. Her stomach fluttered in anticipation of the fall, and then something changed.
Amy was still swinging. She was as high as when she was about to fall, but she came gently back down, and up again, and down. As the swing slowed to a stop, Amy looked at her surroundings. The swing looked very different; the seat, now carved and twisted, hung from the tree on two long, deep green vines. Leaves and bright pink flowers of all sizes grew on them. Nearby Amy saw a huge deer gracefully bend down to take a drink in the lake, which sparkled in the pale sunshine. All was peaceful. Amy wasn't the least bit afraid of the large animal. The ground was all mossy hills and valleys. Trees were growing all around and big butterflies were everywhere.
''Excuse me, Mr. Deer, could you please come over here and tell me what in the world is going on?'' Amy asked. The child knew that animals do not normally talk, but she asked the question and was not at all surprised when the deer answered.
''I cannot come over, I am sorry to say. Deer are not allowed in the fairy kingdom, we may accidentally hurt someone. It is a shame, though, I've always wanted to try some of the fairies' cake,'' he said.
''Fairies? Am I a fairy now? Is that why you look so big?'' Amy wondered.
''Certainly, you came here to find a hobby and even though you don't have wings, there are many fairies who will help you as if you are one,'' the deer explained. Amy was amazed.
So the fairies helped Amy find a hobby. At first it didn't go well.
''I'm sorry I spilled your paint, Andy, I'll help you clean it up,'' Amy apologized to the art fairy.
Andy laughed and her smile sparkled just as much as her magical wings. "At least you got just the purple shade I needed, but it shouldn't be in the sky! Don't worry, I can fix it," she said. They were painting in a meadow full of flowers in all shades of purple.
''Maybe cleaning is your hobby, you could balance out your clumsiness,'' Cassie, the craft fairy, joked after Amy made another mess. The shelves lining the craft room were covered in pink slime and even Cassie's bouncy curls had glue in them.
''Wow, am I bad at singing, but at least I don't have to clean anything up this time, unless I shattered one of those big windows,'' Amy laughed to Mira, the music fairy.
"You didn't. Don't worry, I know you'll find your hobby soon," Mira said. Her big blue eyes told the truth.
Finally, Amy tried baking with a fairy named Brittany. ''OK, let's make fairy cake,'' Brittany said, ''It's sweeter than you are!'' When Brittany smiled, dimples appeared on her chocolate-colored cheeks. The tidy kitchen had everything imaginable to use for baking organized nicely. Three flower spills and a dozen broken eggs later, it wasn't looking nearly as neat.
''I'm sorry I made such a mess, I was distracted by an idea: why don't just a few fairies fly treats over to the animals. I'm sure the animals won't accidentally hurt them if there's only a few,'' Amy explained.
''What a great idea!'' Brittany said. ''Let's get started right away!''
Soon the whole kingdom was abuzz with plans for the animals. A party was planned so that all the fairies could get together to cook food big enough.
''I see you've found your hobby, little one,'' said Opal, an elderly fairy whose wrinkled face was framed in long snow white hair.
''What do you mean?''
"Well, you enjoy helping animals, and you're wonderful at it,'' Opal explained, ''It's not just animals either, look how excited everyone is because of you. A real talent you have.'' Suddenly Amy understood.
''Oh thank you! You all helped me find my hobby, and it even helps others!'' she cried.
''In Mark 9:35, Jesus says, 'Whoever wants to be first must take last place and be the servant of everyone else.' That means that if you are humble and make it your ability, or hobby, to serve others, you will become great,'' Opal said.
Amy beamed as she surveyed the scene around her. "It works fast," she said, "This is already pretty great!"
"Come on Eric, hurry up! We need to get to the airport so we can see Shaline!!!" Steffeny hollered up the stairs as she grabbed her suitcase and her pillow from the landing.
“Geez Stef, I'm coming," Eric emerged from his bedroom wearing pajama pants and an old sloppy T-shirt.
"Go hurry up and change, we need to look trés magnifique when we get to Pari," Steffeny said, smoothing down her light pink quilt material tank top dress. She wore a short shawl of the same material. The look was completed with a black belt studded with fake jewels.
"You do know that we probably won't land in ‘paree' until it is midnight there," Eric said as he patted his little sister on the head, causing her pink beret to slide further to the side of her head.
“Still gotta look great for the plane ride!" Steffany said cheerfully as she grabbed all her things and skipped out to the car. She was too excited to argue with Eric. This was going to be the adventure of a lifetime!
“Eric! Steffy! Get ready to leave in the next five minutes!” their mom called from the car. ‘I hope this adventure will give me some good ideas to publish
in Girl World,' Steffeny thought as she ran to the car and threw her stuff in the trunk. ‘Here we go!’ As she buckled her seatbelt she wondered what adventures lie ahead.
Steffeny woke up to a gentle tap on her shoulder.
“Time to wake up sleepyhead!" her mom said, "We're in Paris!" Steffeny sat bolt upright, sending a notebook and pencil sailing onto the floor. Oops, hurriedly she picked up her things.
"Mom do you know where my phone went?" Steffeny asked as she ruffled through her bag.
"I have it in my bag charging. You took some cool pictures by the way," her mom said.
"Thanks, too bad the height made me so dizzy I couldn't take any more pictures," Steffeny said.
“At least you got some, now let's wake up those boys and start our adventure!" her mom said. "Already on it, WAKE UP ERIC!" Steffeny hollered as she jumped on Eric's legs and pulled away his blanket.
“Alright, alright, I'm awake!" Eric laughed.
“Kids, we are still on a plane!" their mom scolded.
"Sorry Mom," they both said at the same time. Soon their dad was awakened and they headed off. Two hours later the four of them were riding through the heart of France in a taxi. "Mom! I think I see the Eiffel Tower!" Steffany shouted.
"Oh look there it is!" Mom said.
"Wow," said Dad.
"Cool!" said Eric. They all stared at the beautiful structure for a long time, speechless.
“It's like one of those aesthetic pictures you see on the internet but in real life!" Steffeny finally exclaimed.
“Oh shoot, I left my phone in my bag in the trunk,” Eric said.
"Dang, so did I,” Steffeny said.
“Mine's dead." Dad said.
“I don't have a very good angle from up here but don't worry, we have a tour of the city tomorrow by Shaline so we can get lots of pictures then.
“Yeah!” Dad exclaimed.
“Woo-hoo!” Steffeny cried.
“Awesome!” Eric shouted.
"Mom, Dad, wake up, is that the hotel?" Eric asked, nudging his parents awake.
"Oh my gosh I think that's it!” Steffeny squealed. It was very late so they loaded their luggage into their master suit and then crashed down in the beds. The next morning everybody woke up at 1:30pm Paris time. Except Steffeny, she woke up at 10:20am Paris time and finished writing in her diary. Once that was finished she pulled out a purple notebook and began a story about a girl who traveled to Paris all alone, hoping to become an architect by studying the Eiffel Tower. Steffeny paused, biting the eraser nub of her pencil. “It was as if the whole world stopped for a moment as Linda stared up at the amazing structure. It shot straight up into the black sky. Lights flickered on top of the tower, probably tourists. A loud ‘honk!’ sent the girl back to reality. Linda turned around and froze as she saw a navy blue SUV headed straight towards her!" Steffeny stopped and examined her work with satisfaction. "Steffeny! Come have some lunch!" she heard her Dad call.
“Coming!" Steffeny replied as she set her notebook on her bedside table.
"Is Shaline up yet? Please say she is!" Stelleny asked as she skipped into the large suite's kitchen.
"Right here waiting for you little sis,” Shaline said from somewhere behind Steffeny. She whirled around and was caught up in a huge hug from her sister.
“I missed you so much!” she said, trying not to cry.
“I missed you, too, but I'm glad you got to come here. You are going to love it,” Shaline replied.
“Excuse me, hello, it's just me, you know, the big brother you haven't seen in a month,” Eric said.
“Eric!” Shaline cried. Once the hug fest was done the family decided to rent a car and drive to a café for lunch. Shaline said she knew a great one in the heart of Paris so she whispered something to Mom and directed her where to drive. Soon they arrived at the Eiffel Tower. Later Steffeny wrote in her diary, “I was so excited when we pulled up in front of the Eiffel Tower. It looked even more amazing from up close. The tower rose high above me and the rest of the city. Being there made me feel like I could do anything. Then about six strangers bumped into me as they passed. I was sucked back to reality and as I looked around I saw just how many people there were, hundreds and thousands. Oh boy, I am super duper shy. We had to park a few blocks away and getting there was like trying to get through the crowd at a firework show times a million. I was getting very anxious and then I looked up at the tower and calmed a little. We finally got through the crowds of tourists and entered into the Eiffel Tower. It was very loud inside but once we got to the table that Shaline reserved for us it was ok. The food was SO GOOD! I don't remember what it was called but something delightfully French. We got macaroons for dessert and if Paris had a taste that is what it would be. Dad was a little uneasy about going to the top of the tower but we convinced him. I couldn't enjoy it though! All the people everywhere and all the noise made me want to curl up in a ball somewhere and hide. The view was breathtaking. I took some good pictures. We stopped in the gift shop and then there was the long walk back to the car. They all wanted to see the lovelock bridge but I begged Mom to drop me off at the hotel first. It took a lot of whining, but eventually she gave in. So that's where I am now. Alone in our hotel. Waiting for my family to get back from the fun they are having without me. All because I am too shy. So much for a fun vacation. I would have been better off staying home, then I could at least go outside.”
"What boring stuff have you been up to while we had fun?" Eric asked Steffeny.
“I wrote in my diary and then I worked on my story for Girl World," she told him.
“What's Girl World?" Eric wanted to know.
"Girl World is a company that makes dolls, books, and magazines, right now they are holding a contest for young girls like me. The winner gets their original story published in the magazine and the basic plot and character ideas for their next Star Girl doll and story." Steffany explained.
“And a star girl is?” Eric asked.
"Oh right, every year they come out with a new star girl. It's basically the newest character whose story is set in the present time so on January 1st a new star girl will be released for 2039,” she explained.
“Gacha, that is all very weird but I hope your story does well,” Eric said.
“Thanks, I think,"Steffeny said.
"Any time lil sis."
"I'm starving! What do you guys say we stop at a café for dinner, I have a few up my sleeve. Or we could go to the park and have a picnic, oh! there is this patisary that you guys just have to see! It is sooo good! Or we could stop at le boulanger for croissants, what do you guys think?" Shaline was talking a mile a minute, she had been in the city longer than the rest of the family and took her role as tour guide very seriously.
“Um, I think we should just eat here, I mean, café food must be so unhealthy. Mom, I know you really care about our diets and stuff," Steffeny said, proud of herself for coming up with such a good excuse.
"Actually food laws here are much more strict than they are in the USA so we would really be better off going to a café than eating what we brought from home," Shaline told them.
“Plus we’re on vacation, I don't mind breaking a few household rules just this once," Mom said.
Dang it! “Well, um, doesn't Shaline have to rest up before the Olympics, isn't that why you aren't training this week?" Steffeny said, thinking fast.
“I'm fine, nothing more relaxing than dinner with my family." Shaline said, grabbing her purse.
“But, but um, well," Steffeny stammered.
“Steffeny what’s going on? You were so excited to come to Paris, don't you want to actually experience it?" Mom asked in concern.
“No I don't, not anymore, but everything is fine!" Steffeny said fiercely, willing herself not to cry.
“Everything is not fine sweetie, what's wrong?" Dad asked.
“If I tell you, you will think that I'm a greedy, selfish, ungrateful jerk, because I am," she said, letting just one tear slip down.
“You are not any of those things and you know it, just tell us what's wrong, maybe we can help," Shaline said.
"Fine," Steffeny said.
“...Then I poured it all out. How scary and stressful it was to see so many people everywhere and how nervous I got. I told them how ungrateful I feel because every girl wants to go to Paris and I'm here but I just want to go home. I told them how disappointed I am. Paris not what I thought it would be. The more I talked about it, the more I just wanted to go home. When I finished telling all my problems Mom gave me a hug.
"Oh sweetie, l know how it feels. When I about your age I went to New York city and I had the same problem,” she told me.
"What did you do about it?" I asked.
“Nothing, I was miserable for the whole trip and when we got home I was disappointed that I had wasted such a cool adventure," Mom said.
"If you really don't like the city, fine, but don't let shyness or fear stop you from having fun,” Dad added.
"Oh, I love the city!" I exclaimed.
"The Eiffel Tower is amazing, everything is beautiful, and the food is like a bite of heaven, but I can't enjoy that," I said sadly.
"Why not? What are all those people doing to stop you? Nothing. Just ask yourself what you have to lose," Shaline encouraged.
“I get what you guys are saying but I still just don't know how to stop being so shy," I said in frustration.
"I know,” Eric said. I was surprised he had spoken up, my brother tries to stay as far away from feelings as much as possible. “If every one of those people out there was either a friend or a relative, would you still be scared or shy?” he asked me. No, I would not. "Ok well just imagine that everyone here is a friend. It's a nice place, if you knew them I bet they would be your friends. Here you can be as crazy as you want, nobody will judge you,” Eric went on. Wow, well said.
"I guess I'll give it a try, is that patisserie still open?" I asked Shaline.
"Yup, they close at nine,” she replied. So we had baked treats for dinner that were apparently healthier than a USA burger. When I looked around I noticed that every single person was laughing, smiling, and joking around with somebody else. All except one girl, a little younger than me. Before I knew what I was doing I walked to her and asked what was wrong. She muttered something in another language.We tried to communicate for a minute but it was hopeless. I pulled up a translation app on my phone and pieced together that she had been separated from her parents in the crowd. She showed me a picture of them. The girl and her mother looked similar with light brown skin and golden brown hair pulled back into braids. The girl's father had darker skin and hair with a mustache. All three of them had beautiful blue eyes. We asked a few people and then I spotted them near the far corner. I pointed them out and the girl ran to reunite with her parents. Then she turned and pointed at me. I waved at them and then went to find my family. They were all very surprised and proud of me. Honestly I was pretty proud of myself. I guess that was the end of my people phobia. I can't wait to find out what other adventures are headed my way now that I can enjoy them. Let's see!”
Steffeny closed her diary with satisfaction. ‘Now that is a good story,’ she thought. That gave Steffeny an idea for her Girl World story. She smiled. ‘Dreams really do come true in Paris,’ she thought, Shaline’s dream of being in the Olympics, her dream of becoming an author, and so many more! That just gave Steffeny another idea!
Sitting at a table in the Eiffel Tower café, Steffeny looked over the beautiful landscape below. Then she looked at her computer screen. Steffeny quickly scrolled through her story one last time to make sure everything was just right. She had written a brief summary of the story that she hoped would be on the back of the book.
It read: “Annabella loves the Ukulele. She also loves singing. Annabella's twin sister Izzy is a poet and she loves to write songs for her twin. Annabella, unlike her sister, is dreaming big and trying to make it reality. When her parents surprise her with a trip to Paris for her birthday Annabella sees her chance. Izzy isn't so sure about all of this yet. So, two sisters, different talents, dreams, worries, and the trip of a lifetime. How do you think it will all shake down?”
Taking a deep breath, Steffeny closed her eyes and hit submit. ‘Yup, this is real,’ she told herself.
Steffeny scrolled down to read entries by other girls her age. She wondered what had inspired their stories. “Tink, tink, tink," Steffeny checked her phone to see who had texted her. It was Shaline, she said, “We’re just leaving the grocery store, Mom wants to meet you in the parking lot in 5 so we can get to the Olympics early, can't wait!”
Steffeny quickly typed back, “Ok, can't wait to see you crush it!”
The holidays are here!
Do not waste them,
Be you in joyful cheer!
Do not stress,
Be happy,
And please do not worry.
If the season is too busy
To be enjoyed at all
Then you have mistaken Christmas.
It is not about buying a gifts,
Not wrapping it, either.
It is about Christ, whose praise I lift!
Though the tree with its lights
Will be taken down
Once Christmas is over,
The best gift remains year-round.
That gift is Jesus,
The Son of God.
Gone are the long days of summer fun,
Once, but certainly not for all.
Still shines the bright old and faithful sun
On this new season we call fall.
There is a crisp snap in the cold air.
The scented candles are now lit.
The squawk of birds is not at all rare,
When flying South they do not quit.
The loft is a special place right now.
It is nice and cute and cozy.
There are twinkle lights and somehow
They make cold seem warm and rosy.
Dropped acorns crunch beneath my feet
As I walk across the backyard.
Leaves of cardinal, pumpkin, and wheat
Could decorate a lovely card.
Endless the activities now are;
Feeling the thwang of our bowstrings,
Tromping through the woods as we go quite far,
Pretending pioneers and things.
Hot cocoa we drink from teacups fine.
Pumpkin muffins taste wonderful.
Patterned leggings you know are mine,
My drawer of them is bursting full.
Piles of leaves are scattered about
To be burned in cheery firelight,
Or put on the trampoline. Without
Hose's rain, the leaves are a delight.
Perfectionists' school takes a long time,
But when I am done, art and words,
Perhaps a nice sketch and a rhyme,
Are inspired by fall in herds.
Though fall may be different for another,
The leaves still show second chances,
Because they fall, they can start over.
God shows mercy, the Bible says.
"Here's the mail, Mom, what's in this golden envelope?" Mason asked as he walked into the kitchen with a pile of bills, letters, newspapers, and yes, one golden envelope.
"What's that?” Maddy asked, even though her brother just asked the same question.
“It's an envelope, duh," Abby joked as she walked by then, "Woa! Is it heavy?"
Mason weighed it against the other mail, "No, not really, it really isn't that heavy. I mean..." His answer took a long time considering he is eight years old and likes to repeat himself.
"Cool!" Benjamin said, though he hardly knew what was going on.
"Mo-o-om!" Maddy called in her whiny six-year-old voice.
"What?" Mom asked, coming out of the laundry room with an overflowing basket of laundry in her hands.
"Do you know what's in this golden envelope?" Abby asked.
"No, I don't think it's a bill, it's probably just a really fancy ad,” Mom answered.
“It's addressed to our whole family," Abby said.
“So can I open it?" Mason asked.
"I wanne open it!" Maddy whined.
"Let me open it!" four-year-old Benjamin said, just wanting to be in on the argument.
"Mason asked first, he can open it, tell me what it is,” Mom said as she began to fold the laundry.
"Try not to rip it, I'll keep the paper for a craft if nobody else has a use for it," Abby said. She didn't have to ask him, he was cutting the gold paper as if it were real gold. A typed letter was pulled out of the envelope. Mason tried reading it but could hardly make out what it said. Abby took the letter and began to silently read.
“What does it say?" all three of the little kids asked at the same time. "Uuuum, ‘I am very sad to inform you that Henry Rupert Billowerd has passed away. I am his son, your long lost cousin and/or second cousin, Rupert Billoward. Henry was quite wealthy and wished to give $1,000,000,000 to every family related to himn, closely or not so what you must do is…’ then there's a bunch of legal stuff I don't understand,” Abby said when she finished reading.
“Wait, what?” Maddy asked.
“It says that apparently our super rich long lost uncle died and we inherited a boat load of money! "Abby said, it didn't matter much to her because she figured Mom and Dad would just put it into savings in case they ever needed it. Benjamin didn't really care because he didn't really understand the concept of money. Mason, on the other hand, was crazy with excitement, he was already picturing himself sitting on a pile of lego sets as big as the house. He was also jumping up and down and flapping his hands like a clumsy bird that forgot how to fly. Maddy was dancing around the house and thinking of all the different toys she would get on every trip to Walmart. Of course she would forget about the toys the day after she got them but that was a minor detail.
"What are you doing?" Kennedy asked as she walked in with Graclie in one arm and her kindle in the opposite hand. Nobody could tell if she was annoyed or jokeing, at age fourteen, she was usually annoyed.
"We won a bunch of money and I'm gonna get a tower of lego sets!” Mason shouted.
“I didn't hear anything about lego sets but yeah Mom and Dad inherited $1,000,000,” Abby said. "Wow!" said Kennedy.
"Aaaa!" screamed nine-month-old Gracie.
"Calm down! "Mom told everyone, “When Dad gets home from work I'll talk to him so we can decide what to do with the money.
"Do we get any of the money?" Mason arked at lunch the next day. Mom and Dad looked at each other in a weird way. “Wha?"
“We were thinking about giving each of you a little bit of it to teach you about handling money,” Dad said.
"Really? Yay! How much?" all the kids started talking at the same time.
"Probably just $100 each, we'll save the rest." Mom said.
"One hundred dollars!!!" most of the kids shouted at once.
“Can we go on vacation next Summer?" Abby asked.
"Maybe," Mom said, this produced more cheers from all the kids. The following week the busy family set off to claim the money. They were shocked to see a set of fire trucks, lights on, their hoses going into the bank. Smoke was billowing out of the windows. Not knowing anything about the situation, Mom and Dad figured it would be a good idea to come back a different time. On his way home from work a few days later, Dad drove by and saw that nothing seemed wrong at the bank so he stopped in.
"May I ask about that fire last Saturday," Dad said.
"Oh yes, that, we're not sure what started it but it began in the room where the bills are kept in the box for the Rater family," the worker said.
"Oh no! I'm Mark Rater, I assume you have all of it digitally somewhere though, right?" Dad said.
“Yes we were able to recover your money earlier today, would you like to take some out sir?" the worker asked.
"Yes please, if you wouldn't mind," Dad said.
"How much?" the worker asked.
"$500 please," Dad requested.
“Right away sir," and then he left to retrieve the money.
“I’m gonna get a lego set, and a stuffed animal, and a nerf gun, and..."
"Mason, you don't have enough money for all of that, and don't you want to save some?" said Kennedy, annoyed.
“How do you know I won't have enough money?" Mason asked, now he was also annoyed. Kennedy made a noise somewhere between a grunt and a groan. Then the two were off bickering for the rest of the drive to Walmart, so a whole two minutes. As it turns out he did not have enough money and ended up spending all of it on one huge lego set. Maddy took a long time to choose, then she bragged about having $50 left over from the baby doll and clothes for a different doll that she got. Benjamin went nuts and wanted to buy the whole store, since he couldn’t do that, he finally got some Paw Patrol cars and a Spider Man car. At that point Mom and Dad are both thinking, ‘This was a terrible idea!’ Kennedy and Abby decided to save their money so finally the parade of people and toys left.
When Mom and the kids returned to Walmart to get groceries, it was a mad house outside. As it turns out, the day after the Raters went shopping a burglar came in the night and stole all the money in the cash register as well as expensive electronics and... toys? Mom decided they would just shop at Aldi’s for a few weeks. After unloading the groceries from the car, Mom sent the three oldest kids to get the garbage cans from the end of the driveway. As Mason was picking up one of the cans, he felt something stuck to it. "Wait, what's this?" he asked, holding up an old-looking brownish yellow paper.
“It's a note, here, lemme see that, it says 'How have you not figured this out by now? With that money you also inherited a curse. Bad things will keep happening wherever you put the money or spend it. The only way to reverse this curse is to bury all the money and mark where it is so nobody steps on it. If anyone steps where the money is buried, they will die!’" Kennedy read, her eyes getting wider and wider.
“Yikes, creepy!" Mason said running to the back with the garbage can.
"It's like a Nancy Drew mystery! Let's try to solve it,” Abby said, almost forgetting how creepy it was.
"Maybe after we tell Mom and Dad,” Kennedy said. "Mom, Mason found this on one of the garbage cans, it's really creepy," Kennedy said five minutes later.
"Wow! that is creepy!" Mom said. She knew it wasn't a joke, at least not by her kids by the serious looks on their faces.
"What should we do about it?" Abby asked, “Can we solve the mystery?”
Mom thought for a minute. “Curses aren't real, so either someone who is superstitious left it to be nice, or some kid left it as a prank, either way, how did they know about the money or our address?" Mom asked, more to herself than the girls.
"Maybe it was a criminal, bad things did happen where we left the money. Maybe someone is spying on us and making those things happen!” Abby exclaimed.
"I'll talk to Dad when he gets home from work and we'll try to figure out what to do," Mom said.
“So, about that note,” Kennedy said, jumping into Abby’s bed that night.
“So weird,” Abby said. “If it is a criminal, we need to catch him, let’s find suspects.” The girls thought for a moment.
“How do we do that?” Kennedy asked.
“Not a clue,” Abby said.
“Hmmmmm…” the girls thought some more. “Why would anybody want to do that?” Kennedy asked.
“Good question, maybe we should start with that,” Abby said, grabbing a notebook. She flipped to an empty page and wrote "Motives" in bold letters at the top with a green pan. After about a half hour they hadn't come up with anything and were very off subject talking about nail polish. "Night guys," Meson said, as he was walking past their bedroom.
“Night," Kennedy said, rolling her eyes.
"Wait, Mason, can you help us for a sec?" Abby asked,ignoring Kennady's eye roll.
"Sure, since Maddy won't let me sleep anyway," he said angrily "Great, so you know that note you found on the gachage can, we're trying to figure out who left it and I think I might have an idea." Abby said.
"Thanos?" Masan suggested, this produced an eye roll from both girls followed by,”Oh, ha.Ha.” and, “Really? Just stop it."
"Seriously guys, we should set a trap to catch the criminal," Abby said.
“We should use rabbit traps like in ‘Peter Rabbit,’” Mason suggested.
“That would work, if we had any of those,” Kennedy said, dripping with sarcasm.
"Or we could just call the super hero squad," Maren went on.
"You're hilarious," Kennedy said flatly. Because of all the bickering it took a long time but the kids eventually came up with a plan. “So this Friday we ask if we can sleep in the loft, Maddy can come but don't tell Benjamin about it. Once he falls asleep Maddy and Mason come up, Abby and I will already be up there setting up. How about we don't tell Maddy until we're about to go up. She's sure to spoil it but we can trust you, right Mason? Great. Once we're all set to 'sleep' we’ll all go out and bury the money loud enough for the criminal to hear but not Mom and Dad. Then Mason and I will leave and Abby and Maddy will hide. If they see anything suspicious they'll call us on the walkie talkies, but we can’t respond because then he will hear it. They can take Abby's camera to video the whole time. Once he leaves they follow him carefully, when we get there, we search the scene for clues. If they don't see anything suspicious, they can walkie us so we can switch places, got it?” Kennedy explained with Abby and Mason interjecting with, “Yup!” “Great!” and, “Ok!” every here and there. Plans were made with Mom and Dad concerning sleeping in the loft. Friday night everything was set.
“Wait, duh we don't have to actually bury the money, we can bury fake money,"Abby said. So Maddy's pretend money was put in a jar and taken up to the loft. "Ok, we have blankets, flashlights, shovel, pillows, sleeping bags, the walkies, string, I think we're all set, oh, my camera! I almost forgot, be right back," Abby said. Maddy and Mason were awakened and the foursome crept up to the loft. Once Kennedy explained the plan to Maddy they started off into the woods. Abby and Maddy had borrowed some of Kennedy and Mason's black and camo clothes. ‘Scoop! Toss! Scoop! Toss! Scoop! Toss!’ Finally a decently sized hole was dug and the "money" was placed in it. Kennedy thoroughly filled the hole while the others wrapped bright yellow string between some of the surrounding trees. Kennedy and Mason departed with one of the walkie talkies. Maddy and Abby were left alone sitting on the roots of the biggest tree in the woods. "This is no way to hide!" Abby whisper yelled, so they sprawled on their stomachs so only their heads could be seen from the buried money. Abby was worried which way the criminal would come from, though. It got later and later and Maddy started to fall asleep. Abby was also getting tired. Abby sent two beeps on the walkie talkie, their signal for a shift change. Soon Mason and Kennedy arrived, for once too nervous and excited to argue. Abby and Maddy left. “Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp."
Mason checked his watch, "1:07! Yikes!" he cried.
"Shhhh! We have to be quiet!”
“Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp, rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp.”
"Shouldn't they be gone by now?" It was nearing 1:30.
“Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp, rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp.” The noise was getting louder, “Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp!”
“Mason, the camera!”
“Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp.” Kennedy sent one beep on the walkie talkie.
“That means they see him! Maddy! Wake up! We need to go right now!” Abby commanded frantically. Maddy drowsily opened her eyes. As soon as she saw where she was and her sister climbing down the ladder, she was fully alert.
“Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp, rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp!”
"Hurry! we need to get to the other side of the tree so he doesn't see us!” Kennedy whispered. “Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp.” By now the noise was coming from two directions, their house and the opposite direction.
“I hope that's Abby and Maddy,” Mason said.
"Shhhhh!"
“Rustle, rustle, clomp, clomp, thump!” The footsteps stopped and something heavy nearly landed on Mason's head. Kennedy instinctively put her hand over Mason's mouth to keep his yelp down.
"Shovels, everything's going perfectly," Kennedy's voice was so low Mason could barely hear her but his tongue seemed to have frozen so he stayed silent.
"Looks like them good for nothin' kids listened to our lil tip," a man who looked little more than a boy drawled. Kennedy clenched her fists. “Get to work, Rudy! I didn't hire you as a comrade!” a rudely dignified voice snapped.
“Yees boss,” Rudy said miserably. Just then a softer rustling sounded directly behind Kennedy and Mason. Noiselessly, Abby handed two papers and a pen to Kennedy. One paper read, "Sorry we took so long, what's going on?" It was a good thing Kennedy's eyes adjusted to the dark a long time ago.
“That teenager's name is Rudy. It sounds like he works for that other man, who seems to be too stingy for money-digging. They've only been here about two minutes," Kennedy scribbled on the other paper. “Click!” That unfortunately satisfying clicky pen was what gave them away.
"Um, boss, deed ya’ll hear dat?” Rudy asked.
“I certainly did," the other man said. He was walking towards the kids. Closer, closer.
"Mason, give me the camera. I have a plan,” Kennedy whispered. Closer, closer, closer, flash! “Run!" Kennedy yelled, and run they did, as fast as their legs could carry them.
"Geed em’!” Rudy cried.
“Not so fast, they’re just worthless children,” the boss said.
“Wait!” Maddy called. She was far behind the rest of her siblings.
“Maddy, this isn't a game, listen to me, we are running for our lives, hurry up, I'll hold your hand," Abby said as she rushed back to her sister. They didn't stop running until they sat gasping for breath at the foot of their parents' bed.
“What the heck is going on?" Dad asked groggily.
"Is everything ok?" Mom asked. So the story was told. Let’s just say that Mom and Dad were not pleased, especially considering it was past 3:00 AM and they had been sound asleep. The fear combined with the lecture set all four of them crying. The noise woke Benjamin up and he cried out of confusion and because his brother and sisters’ vacant beds scared him. Gracie also wake up and was not pleased. So most of the Rater family was crying loudly at 3:00AM. Mom got to work making Gracie a bottle and hugging Benjamin to stop his crying. Dad had to step outside for a moment to calm his temper. Once he came back in he calmly explained to his 4 oldest kids why what they did was wrong.
"I'm proud of you though, that stakeout was a brave thing to do,” Dad said.
"Thanks,” Mason said.
“Yeah, and it was scary," Maddy agreed. The older girls just hugged their Dad. The other kids joined in and almost squashed him.
"We'll call the police and let them deal with those guys, ok, they won't get away with scaring our kids," Dad said.
"The pictures!” Mason cried.
"You're right," Abby said, picking up the camera that had fallen on the floor. "Blurry, blurry, only shows the ground, this one might be good, it shows them and in the background I can see the hole and the shovels. Oooo, here’s a shot of their faces!" Abby cried triumphantly.
“Let me see that. Wow, great job guys," Dad said.
"Ha! that guy even looks evil!" Masen laughed.
"Haha, he's like your classic cartoon bad guy, " Abby laughed.
“That is what he looks like!" Dad laughed.
"Oh, he does, "Mom laughed. Soon the whole family was laughing so hard they could barely breathe. The following day prints were made of the photos and they were delivered to the police along with the note. Once the whole story was explained to the police, they said they would start work on it right away as they were already on the robbery and the fire.
A week later Mom got a call saying the police found the men. "We just need kids to confirm one and we'll send him off to jail, the other was already convicted of several robberies,” the man on the phone said.
"Ok," Mam said, “Be there around 4:30." The kids confirmed both the suspects. It was found that Rudy Arnold had been at Harborcreek Youth Services. The other man, Miles Terry, had hired Rudy to do his dirty work by falsely promising to give him a share of the money. Mr. Jerry had been Henry Billoward’s best friend since childhood and he was angry that these relatives that Henry hadn't even known got more money than he did. Being a vengeful man with a bad temper, he had kept tabs on the family and their money and caused a disaster wherever the money went. His next step would have been to do something to their home if the note didn't work.
To celebrate they went to Menchie's for ice cream. "Mason! Save some m&ms for other people! Ug! You are so annoying!" Yup, criminals caught, things were back to normal for the Rater family.
Gail Rowey skipped happily through the door of her new house. “How was the first day of your new school?” her Mom asked. They had lived in Waterford for over a month now but they moved in late June so Gail hadn't gone to her new school until today.
“It was great!" she answered, "I made friends with the principal's daughter Lucy and she talked to him about having a charity festival for the homeless and he agreed!” Gail squealed. "There's gonna be games and snacks and races and singing! Mom, I'm doing a solo!"
“That's great Gail,” her Mom said.
“I'm going to sew shirts and Lucy is going do graffiti on them,” she went on.
"Maybe I'll sell pies," her Mom said. Two weeks later, the day of the festival, Gail was jumping around backstage looking over the song she was going to sing.
“Abigail Rowey, singing a song she wrote called ‘I Look Around,’” the announcer announced. Gail took a deep breath, straightened her purple headband, and walked on stage. Gail looked out into the crowd, then for what seemed like hours she froze. Gail tried to remember her song but she couldn't, she
was so nervous she couldn’t even walk off the stage. She looked at the crowd again, then she saw Lucy holding up a sign that said “Help the Homeless” in bold letters. She had to sing to help the homeless. Gail took a deep breath, then the whole song came flowing out. Before she knew it Gail sang the whole song and everyone was clapping wildly.
"Thank you!" Gail bowed and then said, "Any donations go in the bucket, if you have some money put it in there and help the homeless!"
When Gail got to school on Monday Lucy ran up to her immediately. "Did you hear the good news?!" she asked excitedly.
“No,” Gail replied, “What?”
They collected more than a million dollars for the homeless!" Lucy exclaimed, grabbing Gail’s hands and twirling her around. Gail smiled, now somebody else had a warm house and plenty of food to eat, and she had helped make it happen.
Once there was a girl named Charlet. She was almost 10 years old and as rambunctious as a six year old boy. “I'm going out Mama!” she called as she flew down the stairs of their small house towards the door.
"Aren't you forgetting something?" her mother asked.
“Oh, right,” Charlet got a few crackers from the kitchen cupboard and started back towards the door.
“Something else?" her mother eyed Charlet’s bonnet on a hook by the door.
“Do I have to wear it?" she asked.
"Yes, you do," her mother said firmly.
“Fine, "Charlet said, planning on taking it off as soon as she was out of sight.
"I know what you're thinking,” her mother said.
"How can you know what I'm thinking when I haven't said it?" Charlet wanted to know.
"Mothers know, now keep the bonnet on," was the only response she could get.
“Yes Mama,” she said, running out the door.
"Ladies don't run!” Mama called after her, but Charlet was already gone. Mama sighed, she opened her sewing box and looked at the pieces of purple cloth inside it. This plan better work, if it didn't work, what would? Meanwhile, Charlet was exploring the woods behind their house. What was that glimmering in the distance? She slowly started walking towards it. Was that... a creek! Charlet ran and splashed into the glassy, clear water. After splashing around for a while, she decided to go back to the apple tree and have a snack of cracker and apple.
On her birthday Charlet woke up bright and early. She hurriedly threw on her favorite purple dress and ran downstairs to the special breakfast she only got to have once a year. She inhaled the warm smell of cinnamon pancakes and syrup. There were also apples from the tree outside, crackers, and whipped cream. For lunch she would be able to have whatever she wanted, Charlet wanted chocolate. For dinner they would have the usual pork and cheese cubes. The best thing about dinner was Charlet's best friend Anabel would be there. Charlet sat down and found a small red package at her place setting. "I thought we were going to save all my gifts for tonight," she said, delighted.
"We decided to give you one in advance,” her mother said as she sat down.
"But first let's eat this delicious breakfast while it's still hot," her father added. With that they prayed and dug into the hot breakfast. Charlet wanted to open her gift but a meal like this could not be rushed. Once they were all done eating (Charlet’s parents took longer than she did) Charlet opened her present. As she tore off the red paper, Charlet saw something purple. As she ripped off the rest of the paper, a purple bonnet and apron. "Uuuuum, thanks,” Charlet said, hanging the bonnet on a hook and putting the apron on. At least it was purple.
That night after dinner Charlet and Anabel scurried up to Charlet's room to play with her new doll (Anabel gave it to her). "I should have bought one of my dolls," Anabel said. "I'm bored."
Charlet sighed, “Me too," she said, then she brightened. "I know what we can do." Charlet led Anabel down the stairs and motioned for her to be quiet as they passed the kitchen, they grabbed their bonnets and rushed outside.
"I thought you weren't supposed to go outside after dark," Anabel said.
Charlet shrugged. “At least I'm wearing my bonnet," she said, “Besides, fall is here and it's getting dark so much earlier."
Anabel wasn't so sure. “But your mother said..."
Charlet interrupted, "I was going to wait until you could see yourself but I found a creek.”
Anabel instantly forgot about her fear, "Well what are we waiting for!"
"This is amazing! Want to explore further that way?" Anabel asked, pointing downstream.
"Sure!" Charlet said. The woods were beautiful at night with the trees silhouetted in the moonlight. The creek sparkled like a black pearl under the stars. They had been splashing and giggling for a while when Anabel saw something.
“Is that a CAVE?" she exclaimed.
"I hope so," Charlet said, running towards it. "It IS a cave," she said, pulling Anabel in.
"We shouldn't go in there," Anabel said, worried, "What if a raccoon lives there?"
Charlet rolled her eyes. “Racoons are nocturnal, so they're probably out getting dinner."
"What if they come back to eat it, and have us on the side!" Anabel exaggerated.
“You’re such a scaredy cat,” Charlet mumbled. Anabel would NOT be called a scardy cat.
"I found this cave so I'm going to be the first to go in it," with that Anabel squared her shoulders and marched in.
"What can I say, I know my friend," Charlet said as she followed her friend into the cave.
“Did you hear that?" Anabel asked. They were pretty far in the cave and she was getting scared again.
"Did I hear what?" Charlet asked.
"It sounded like a bat," Anabel said with a shaky voice.
"Did you say b-b-bats," if Charlet was scared of one thing it was bats. She shook it off. "It was probably just your imagination," she said. Both girls were silent for a minute, listening. Suddenly, Charlet screamed! A bunch of rocks fell, blocking the entrance to the cave.
"What is so terrible that you trapped us in here?” Anabel asked in a loud whisper.
"Something brushed against my back," Charlet told her.
“Do you think it was..." Anabel started.
“Bat!!" Charlet interrupted.
“I can finish my own question," Anabel said.
"No, there’s a bat flying over you!" Charlet yelled.
Now it was Anabel’s turn to scream. "We have to get out of here!” she was on the verge of tears.
"How?" Charlet asked.
"We have to stay calm!" Anabel didn't sound very calm.
"Ok stop screaming," Charlet was screaming herself.
Anabel took a deep breath. “Ok, there has to be some way out of here, we just need to find it," she said.
"Ok,” Charlet said, “There's a crack of light over there, maybe we can widen it and get out." Anabel looked at the crack and tried to think where it would be on the outside. “We can dig with rocks," she said.
"Great idea!" Charlet said, looking for a sharp stone.
Anabel leaned back and sighed, "It feels like we have been digging for hours and all I've done is ruin my best dress." Charlet couldn't deny that it had been hours but she could deny that they weren't getting anywhere.
"We did get somewhere," she said. “Now I can stick my hands through the hole and wiggle them a little bit."
Anabel shrugged and then started singing. "I got a God who loves me, who watches over me-e. I got a God who loves me. He's every-thi-ing I ne-ed." Charlet joined in on the second verse. “I got a God who loves me with deep unfailing love. I got a God who loves me. He watches fro-om abo-ove.”
"God will give us strength to get out of here," Charlet whispered. Anabel nodded and they kept singing and digging.
"Charlet! Anabel! Is that you?" came a voice from outside the cave.
“Papa?” Charlet was almost scared to believe it was him.
"How did you girls get stuck in there?" he asked.
“Long story,” Anabel said.
"We’ll explain later,” added Charlet.
"Help! There are bats!" Anabel cried. Papa took his pipe and helped them move away the rocks until there was a hole big enough for the girls to fit through.
"Papa!" Charlet threw herself into his arms. After hugging his daughter and making sure she was ok, Papa became stern again.
“You two are in big trouble for sneaking out," he said.
"We're sorry Mr. Yearlington, we won't do it again,” Anabel assured him.
“I know you won't, now let's go home," Papa said, taking their hands.
"Do you know how I found these girls?" Papa asked Mama.
"Dear me, how?" Mama was quite startled by the earning's events.
"I heard them singing, ‘I got a God who loves me,’" he told her.
"I stitched those exact words on Charlet’s bonnet strap,” Mama said.
"It must have reminded us even though we didn't know," Anabel said.
"This sure is one special bonnet,” Charlet agreed.
“Not as special as God's love," Mama reminded them.
One Summer day Stefany sat on her back deck reading. Chapter 7, Stefeny closed her book and sighed, she looked longingly at her swimming pool, the water looked so cool and refreshing but she had no one to play with and she did not like playing by herself. The reason that she didn't have anyone to play with was because her fourteen year old brother Eric was always busy building something, her sixteen year old sister Shalines who she usually did stuff with was at the Olympic Trials, her Dad was at work, and her mom was inside cleaning. Stefany had nothing to do!
"Stefeny honey I'm going to weed the garden, want to help?” she heard her Mom call. She immediately dropped her book and went to help.
A little later her best friend Katie came over and asked if Stefeny wanted to play softball at her house which was just down the road. "Sure can I Mom?" Stefeny asked.
“Sure honey, just make sure to be home by 3,” said her Mom. So Stefeny and Katie ran to Katie's house, but when they got there there were a bunch of other people there. ‘Oh well,’ she thought, ‘At least Katie’s here.’
After Katie taught Stefeny how to play and everyone was finally playing, Stefany remembered that she forgot to put the bookmark in her book. ‘What chapter was I on 5,8, no 7,’ she thought. Just then she got clobbered by a softball. Stefeny fell down. Everyone was quiet for a moment, then seeing she was not hurt they all started laughing. She got up and ran home. ‘So much for doing something besides reading,’ she thought.
"Stefeny wait!” Katie yelled. Once she finally caught up to her Katie asked, “What's wrong, why don't you want to play?”
Stefeny took a deep breath. “I've just been having a hard time since Shaline left," she said.
“That’s ok you don't have to play if you don't want to,” Katie said.
"Thanks,” Stefeny said.
Later when she was on the phone with Shaline, Stefeny said, "All I do is read all day, it's a waste of Summer, when will you be home?"
"Well,” said Shaline, "If I don't get in then next week..."
"Yay!" Stefeny said, “You're coming ho-ome! You’re coming ho-ome!” she chanted.
"Or," Shaline interrupted, "If I do get in I'll be home by fall.”
“Fall,” Stefeny repeated, “That's so far away, you're sure to get in, I'll waste the whole Summer!"
“Stefeny calm down, we don't know that I'll get in and if I do I'll still come home for a week in between the trials and the Olympics, just remember that God's in control," Shaline said.
"Okay," Stefeny said. But she was still worried.
The next day Stefeny, Eric, and their parents were all huddled on the couch watching the Olympic Trials. Eric and Stefeny's parents all got up and started dancing when they heard Shaline’s name on TV but Stefeny couldn't join them. She would be bored until October.
Stefeny's Mom came into her room and sat on the bed. "What's wrong honey?" she asked, even though she was sure she already knew.
“Nothing," Stefeny lied.
“Come on we both know that's a lie," her Mom said.
"Why does Shaline have to go?” Stefeny asked, "I know I should be happy for her but I'll miss her so much.” Stefeny started to cry.
Her mom stroked her hair. "We'll all miss her,” she said, pulling Stefeny into a hug, “But she'll come back."
Stefeny looked up at her Mom. “What will I do until then?" Stefeny asked.
"You could see what Eric's always doing in that shed,” her Mom suggested. Stefeny shrugged. "Just remember,” her Mom said, "God's in control.” Stefeny told her Mom that was what Shaline said. "That's because it's true," her Mom told her.
The next day Stefeny took her Mom's advice and decided to go see what Eric was building. "What are you making?” she asked.
"Card table,” Eric said without looking up.
"What do you need a card table for?" Stefeny asked, trying to see what it looked like over his shoulder.
“Nothing,” Eric lied.
“Then why are you making it?" Stefeny pressed.
"Just because ok!" Eric turned to her with a very mad expression on his face. Tears started brimming in Stefeny's eyes. “Yeesh girls are sensitive,” Eric mumbled. “Tell you what," he said, “Why don't I teach you how to play baseball?"
A smile lit Stefeny’s whole face. “Guess being over sensitive can be a good thing!" she said as she ran out of the shed with Eric.
"Ok Stef, do you want to be the batter or the catcher?" Eric asked after he explained the rules.
Stefeny thought for a minute, "Batter,” she said, "I'm not good at catching."
"OK," Eric said, "But you're going to regret that.” Eric was right; Stefeny was terrible at batting. Every time she threw the ball up to bat it, it fell before she even had a chance. "Why don't you try catching instead,” Eric suggested.
Stefeny shrugged, "Ok," she said. Stefeny proved to be just as bad at catching as she was at batting. She sank down on the grass in disappointment. Eric sat next to her, "What's wrong?" he asked. "The Stefeny I know wouldn't get this upset over a 'silly sport.’"
Stefeny sighed. "It's not about the sport, it's about Shalene."
Eric got up. "Oh no," he said.
"What is it?” Stefeny asked, getting up too.
“Is this going to be another of your sappy feeling talks?" Eric asked.
“How sappy do you think advice is?" Stefeny asked.
"Depends on what the advice is,” was Eric's answer.
Stefeny wasn't sure what he meant but he wasn't running away yet so she just poured it all out. "I'm worried I will waste the whole summer because Shaline will be away, I thought maybe baseball could keep me busy but I'm terrible at it," Stefeny paused. "What do I do?" she asked.
Eric thought a minute. "3 things," he said, "1, trust God, 2, keep looking, 3, not sports.”
"Why not sports?" Stefeny wanted to know.
“Well,” Eric said, "It sounds to me like you need something you can play by yourself." Stefeny nodded and Eric continued. "Most sports need more than one person,” he told her. She thought about this for a moment then jumped up and hugged him.
“Thank you,” Stefeny said.
“Any time, sis," Eric said.
Stefeny did keep trying, she tried hopscotch (boring), jump roping (too hard), and ballet (not easy to do outside). One day when she was about to give up Stefeny saw someone. He was in the yard two houses down throwing an orange ball in a hoop. Stefeny didn't immediately realize what he was doing, she just realized he was doing it alone. She ran to get Eric. “What's he doing?” she asked.
“Basketball," he told her.
“And you can do it alone?" Stefeny was almost scared of the answer.
“It works better with more people but you can practice shooting hoops yourself,” Eric said.
Stefeny was inside in an instant. "Dad, can we get a basketball hoop?" she asked.
“Sure honey," her Dad said. “But if you don't mind my asking, why do you want one?" her Dad asked. Stefeny told him the whole story. When she was finished, her Dad just stared at her.
"What?" Stefeny asked, “You didn't think we wouldn't go to Paris to support your sister did you?" her Dad asked.
"Wait, what!" Stefeny couldn't believe her ears. "You mean we're going to Paris! I won't waste the Summer!" Stefeny paused. “Can I still get a basketball hoop?"
Her Dad laughed. “Yes, you can still get a basketball hoop.”
Eric knocked on the door. "Can I borrow Stef?" he asked poking his head in. "What is it?" Stefeny asked when they were outside.
"I got something for you,” Eric said, leading her into the shed. When she saw what was in there Stefeny gasped. In front of her was a beautiful pink desk with intricately curved legs and a cushioned stool to go with it.
"When did you do this?" Stefeny asked in awe.
"When you thought I was making a card table," he said with a sly smile.
"Why?" Stefeny asked.
"I wanted to give you something and a desk was the first thing that came to my mind,” Eric explained. "You're always reading, you'll be out of books soon so I thought maybe you could write your own stories. I also got you a journal to complain to," he added.
“Thank you," Steffeny said, hugging him. Now she had plenty to do!
"Are they here yet?" Trixie Vanpel asked in for the 5th time that morning.
"I'm sure they will be here soon,” her mom responded, “Africa is a long way away you know."
“I wish I could have gone with them," Trixie pouted.
“Eleven years old is too young to go to Africa to study animals," her mom said.
"But I'll be twelve next month," Trixie protested. Last year right after Trixie turned eleven her sister Colista and brother Mike left for Africa to study animals. For the past eleven months Trixie had spent most of her time missing them. Now, they were visiting home for one whole month before their next mission. “Mike was twelve when he left,” Trixie pointed out.
"Twelve and a half," her mom corrected, “Besides I can't have all my children in some distant country.”
“He was as mature as an eight-year-old,” Trixie said under her breath.
"Quit moping and go say hello to your siblings.”
"They're here?!!!!” Trixie was out the door in an instant.
"Trixie!!!" Colista jumped out of the car and scooped her sister up in a big bear hug. “I've missed you so much!" she said.
"Not as much as I've missed you!" Trixie countered.
"Fine,” Colista said, pretending to be upset, “We're even-- in height too, you must have grown 3 inches since I left.”
Trixie tried to stand a little taller. "I am almost 12,” she said. “Isn't that old enough to go with you on your next mission?”
Colista laughed. “We'll have to talk to Mom and Dad about that."
Trixie sighed. "I already did, they said no."
"Well maybe I can..." Colista started.
"He-e-e-l-l-o-w, "Mike interrupted, "What about me?"
"Oh, right,” Trixie said, pretending she forgot. Just then their parents burst out the door.
"My babies!" their Mom said while hugging Colista.
"Hey there son!” their Dad said. Everybody was all smiles having a wonderful reunion.
That night after dinner they were all sitting on the couch talking about what happened while Colista and Mike were away. “I had my birthday party last Saturday," Trixie said, “I wanted to wait for you guys but Dad said we can go to Porky’s for my birthday dinner tomorrow.”
Mike jumped up. "That reminds me," he said, “We should probably wait ‘til tomorrow but I can't wait to give you your gift.”
Colista handed her an envelope. Trixie eagerly tore it open and read the inside of the card, it said: Dear Trix, Happy Birthday!! Boy do we have a surprise for you. You're going to spend a month in Antarctica with us! Chill out, Mom and Dad said it's OK. We'll work out the details later, for now, start packing! With love Colista and Mike." As she read, a broad smile spread across Trixie's face.
Colista smiled as the plane landed and Trixie clutched her hand so hard her knuckles were white. Colista remembered her first day in Africa. She had been just as excited as Trixie is now. "Are you ok?" she asked. Trixie wiggled in her seat. "Ye-e-es!' she said.
"So this is where we're staying,” Colista said, a little disgusted.
"Guess so,” Mike said, tossing his suitcase on one of the beds.
"Looks cozy," Trixie said, choosing the bottom bunk. It certainly was cozy, it was a small one room cabin with a fireplace at each end. There was a set of bunk beds on one side of the far fireplace and a third bed on the other side.
The next day they were getting ready to explore outside the cabin. “Trixie, did you pack your camera?" Mike asked.
"Yea, I'll bring it," she said, "Why are you bringing cans of beans?"
Colista answered for Mike. "Because your brother is scared of starving in just half an hour.” "Nu-u-u," Mike said. "You never know what could happen, we could get lost out there and starve to death.”
Trixie looked scared. "So is it safe to go out?" she asked.
“Sure," Mike said, “It's just better to be safe than sorry."
“I'm freezing, can we go back now?" Colista asked.
"I didn't want to complain but I'm pretty cold too," Mike said.
"Just a little longer,” Trixie begged. “I don't get to have adventures every day like you do.”
Mike looked up at the sky. "Ok but not too long," he said, “It's starting to snow."
"Hurray!" Trixie began running, "Let's make a snowman and snow angels!"
Colista and Mike looked at each other and shrugged then joined Trixie.
"Ok, we should really head back now,” Mike said.
"Fine!" Trixie said, "Let's go."
Colista looked around. "Go where?" she asked.
"Back to the cabin of course," Mike said.
"No, I mean which way is the cabin?" Colista asked.
"It's that way,” Trixie and Mark said at the same time. They were pointing opposite directions. “Don't panic,” Colista ordered.
"How do I not panic?" Trixie asked, “We're going to die out here!"
"We are not going to die,” Mike said, "Although we would have a higher chance of living if you hadn't insisted that we stay and build a snowman."
Trixie gasped, "I just wanted to have an adventure!”
"Well here you go!" Mike said, "Thanks to you we can spend our last days having one!"
"I thought you said we wouldn't die!" Trixie retorted.
"Well…” Mike started, but before he could finish Trixie interrupted.
“And don't blame it all on me, Colista was supposed to keep track of where we are."
Before Mike could answer, Colista spoke up, “Stop fighting,” she said, “It's getting late and we'll only survive out here if we work together."
"How are we going to keep warm?” Trixie asked.
“We use our resources," Mike said.
“The only resource out here is snow and rocks,” Trixie said looking around.
"I got it,'' Colista said, "We can build an igloo like the Indians did."
"That could work,” Mike said, "And I brought some sticks to start a fire."
Trixie stared at him. "How will we start it, or keep it burning?"
Colista pated her pocket. "I have matches," she said.
"The wood is pretty wet,” Mike said. “It should last the night, all we need is something to light that can spread to it."
"I brought my sketchbook," Trixie said.
An hour later Colista, Mike, and Trixie were sitting in a small igloo around a fire, roasting beans on a flat rock. "How are we going to get home?'' Trixie asked.
Colista put an arm around her. “We don't know yet,'' she said, “But God does, and He will protect us and lead us home if he wants us there.”
"What if He doesn't want us there?" Trixie asked.
"God wants us were He wants us," Mike said, "The Bible says 'God will work out all things for the good of those who love Him.’"
“And we love Him," Colista added, "All we can do now is pray." So they did. They prayed for God's will to be done and for Him to lead them home safely.
The next morning when Trixie woke up she felt like a magnet was pulling her east. So as soon as they were done eating breakfast they set off that way. About an hour later when they were about to turn back Colista saw something. "Didn't we walk along a lake for a while yesterday?" she asked.
“You're right," Mike said, "We walked Southwest from the cabin and then started following the lake."
"How do we know where to branch off?" Colista asked.
"I got it!" exclaimed Trixie, who had been looking at pictures on her camera.
“Got what?" Colista and Mike asked at the same time.
"The route, we branched off at this big boulder, see,” Trixie showed them the picture on her camera. So they followed the lake until they got to a big boulder then they went Northeast. When they saw the little cabin they all broke into a run shouting, "He saved us! God wanted us to get home!"